Sunday, July 18, 2010
Being distracted is good, no? I like to be distracted. Sometimes it's the only way I can keep going. I don't like it that I keep worrying about everything, that I keep pushing myself, reluctantly. Sometimes I wish I can just do things I want to do, without having to think of the taunts of "3 months 26 days, 25 days left..." or the thought of having to deal with the Prelims.
I keep telling myself, just let life flow. But as of most things, saying is easier than doing. Preaching is easier than applying. Well. I really just want to let things flow as it is. If time is to fly and I'll be out of JC soon, I just want to feel like.. so be it. True, I wish I could be stuck in time. I wish I could be back during A'Div, or during December holidays, or during June mugging session, or back during Orientation 2009. But it's obviously impossible. Sigh.
"and try to take the path less traveled by...
that first step you take.. is the longest stride"
my thoughts at 8:38 pm