Oh man. Reading your old blog, really gives you a sense of how you were a year or two ago. Maybe in five years' time, I'll look back at this post with the fond memories that surrounded the past year that is 2009.
The decade's about to end in around 3 hours' time. In this decade, I've been through Primary 2 to 6, Secondary 1 to 4, and now JC1 ends. My view on the world has changed so much since I was that small little boy stepping into that primary 2 classroom. Much have changed about me too, which I embrace rather than ignore. I've made many great friends, of whom I still stay close to, and I've seen their loyalty through some of the toughest and 'weirdest' times, in fact.
Well, to end this year, it was quite fitting that I did some recollecting. And what best way, when I stumbled upon my Inbox and Sent Messages that Sony Ericsson, with their PC Suite, fortunately and sneakily saved onto my computer. (I feel like I'm advertising for Sony Ericsson, but yeah they're cool!) And whilst going through the messages... Some made me laugh, some made me go like "what the f was wrong with me typing like that" and those sorta emotions. Some made me think, think hard as I always do, most of the time over very trivial things, when you look at the bigger things in life. I had some messages dated back to last year (yes, 2008) December. So yah, I think I'll read some more soon, when I have the time. 'Cos in all honesty, it's quite good reading. Haha IF you know what I mean. (:
And back about my blog. Yup these are the past two years' New Year blog posts I had. This one from all the way back in the New Years' Eve of 2007. And the above from the New Years' Day of this year, 2009. Haha just looking at them makes me ponder. Back then in on the first day of this great year, I still harboured faint hopes of making it to VJ, or still had dreams of getting into AC. Hmm in 2008, I was still wondering whether I'd do well for 'O's, and I certainly felt I did do well. And my, my... Some things just never change, "Play hard", and all the enjoying soccer part. Well, this year, I don't think I enjoyed soccer as much as I had to hockey around. Hehh.
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So, what are my New Year resolutions for 2010... (I shall do it like how I did it for 2009)
1. (Similarly to 2008) Study hard, and hopefully do well for the 'A' Levels.
2. Enjoy SAJC as much as I can, 'cos I definitely loved the past year here.
3. Have as much fun as possible living this last year of my carefree teenage life. (After this year, it's NS and out to the real world)
4. Do what I preach. Or as most say, just being myself.
5. Win that A'Div gold.
6. Get a silver for NAPFA and lose more weight.
7. Manage to do everything above and the last point below!
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8. Do what I like, when I like, how I like.
So, to everyone whom I care about, and love so much (even when I don't show it sometimes, or I show the contrary), have a very carefree, wonderful, great and
Happy 2010!!!
(Yes away with the 2008 colours) Hmm so I'll leave you with my song of the year from Paramore.
Enjoy.
Last words! Don't. Never. Let your heart win.
Bye~!(Yes the last "Bye~!" of 2009 and the decade!! Haha...)
my thoughts at 8:50 pm
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
On the eve of New Year's Eve:
- I saw Liverpool get owned at Villa Park but still jumped like mad when Fernando Torres scored the winner in the 93rd minute.
- We went to house hunting/viewing.
- I backed up my comp stuff in an external hard drive.
How boring can life be. (:
Jessie James - I Look So Good (Without You)
Pretty singer. Nice song! Haha...
Bye!
my thoughts at 9:21 pm
Monday, December 28, 2009
Hahha! Cool shits. Why didn't we think of that earlier! (:
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i should stop betraying my true self. i've not been who i really am, was, whatever you want to call it. hmm this isn't a very serious thing though. but i just feel that much has always been said about 'just being who you are', and the 'what you see is what you get', and even when I want to follow these, i don't in the end. i know where i've came from. i'm not going to start forgetting what those 10 years has made me into. it's time to stop trying to be someone new, and if i can't be accepted for what i really am, it just shows that that person doesn't respect those 10 years of my life. so i won't really give a much thought bout that person anymore. i can still be nice, but on my terms.
i'll just take it as this year was a hiatus from my normal self, soon i'll be back to that normal self.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:57 pm
Friday, December 25, 2009
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year! It's so fast, another year has past. 2009 has been such a steep learning curve for me. I've learnt much, but I've suffered quite a bit of setbacks too. I've experienced many new things as well, well documented on this very blog. Hmm well, since I'm in the mood and I have the time, I think I shall do a review of my 2009.
The very same day last year... I was still pondering how much my 'O's would get.. which JC I would go to, AC? VJ? SA? Or just Poly. I have always insisted I never regretted my JC decision, and I still stick with that. I know, I may have experienced something very different in Poly, but what I've received in SA is good enough for me.
The start of this year was a shaky one. I've had to adapt to my new surroundings, and I'll be the first to admit, it was hard at first, and even up till June, I found it very hard to interact and converse. But since then, I think I've grown to learn how to do it correctly, albeit the inevitable mistakes here and there.
Academics was not a stroll in a park, certainly not. It was very different from Secondary school. Once one of the SA physics teachers mentioned that one H2 subject is equivalent to 3 'O' Level's subject, and after this year, I wouldn't disagree one bit. I struggled to understand the workings of JC, what's with lectures, tutorials, and whatnot. But slowly, gradually, I realised how it all worked, and that you only have to work hard to get by. I did that, battled hard and got my due rewards. But enough about that.
I started my 'new life' with a brand new sport as a CCA. Hockey. Who would have thought, I would have joined hockey? I watched some hockey before on TV during the last two Olympics, and thought, heck, what the hell is this? I looked at the penalty corners, and I thought, those retards are putting their lives at stake rushing out at a 100-miles per hour drag flick. Well, I'm one of those retards now, just that I have a little bit more protection. Just a wee bit more. The experience of training with seniors you barely knew with just two months to the big competition they wanted to win so badly was absolutely new to me. They trained hard, made sure you were too. My stamina was short of almost nothing, and I found the going tough.. really tough. Then came the big competition, 'A' Division. I was a reserve goalie, just starting out. I didn't know anything of the pre-match routine, but I just did what I was told and followed the senior keeper. Soon match after match, I felt the adrenaline that goes with any type of competitions. This was my first time playing competitively, even if I didn't play at all. Then came the 3rd/4th placing, the rest was history.
This year, I've also met many great people, which whom some are my friends now. Some more close than others. Especially those that had to go through that awesome year-long subject with me, that was certainly one of the huge highlights of my 2009. There were those that helped me along the way with nice, sound advice when I was down and almost out. I've also maintained my wonderful friendships with my other Secondary school friends. They've been magnificent, and I'm glad we still keep in touch. And yesterday night while thinking of those moments in my beloved Cath High, I'm sure most of them will agree with me with this, "I miss the days where a small metal triangle hung over my heart." So yeah. I'll forever remember those moments prior to this year. And I'm sure we'll continue to keep in touch.
And how a year can change for my beloved Liverpool. At January, they were still at the peak of the Premiership table, fighting for top spot, beating Real Madrid and Manchester United with consecutive 4-1 thrashings. Playing fluid football, attacking football, with the likes of once-fringe Yossi Benayoun on top form. And then in August, off goes Xabi Alonso. Now, they are in seventh, inspirational Stevie G totally off-form, and out of the Champions League, in a huge decline. I can only hope next year, they still finish fourth, with a FA Cup or Europa League trophy.
Hmm. This yearly review wouldn't be nice without my "of 2009"s, right? Whatever I don't care what you think. (:
my Moment of 2009: 3rd/4th Placing Penalty Shootout Victory (over ACS(I)) my Song of 2009: That's What You Get - Paramore my Artiste of 2009: Nickelback my Match of 2009: Liverpool 4-1 Manchester United (@ Old Trafford) my Footballer of 2009: Xabi Alonso (Liverpool/Real Madrid) my Liverpool Footballer of 2009: Jose Pepe Reina (Goalkeeper) my Food of 2009: Pasta (: my Thing of 2009: A'Div Bronze Medal my Month of 2009: June! my Youtuber of 2009: Peter Chao.
my Crush of 2009: you really think I am going to tell you? even if I had one...
There's still much I have to work on in 2010. My studies is very important, that I know, and I still know I am still lagging behind. My relations, I still have to improve on them, improve on how I interact, but I know I can, 'cos I've done it before. My hockey, 'cos I know next year will be an important year for most of us, well isn't it always important for every batch? Haha. But I know next year will be as great as this, if not better. I'm looking forward to it.
And maybe... Just maybe... Heh! Who am I kidding!
And that's it for my year-in review.
Hmm, hope y'all enjoy your Christmases! Even though this year isn't really Christmasy. I want snow, like in the mountains.
Bye~!
And, All I Want For Christmas... Is...
my thoughts at 12:55 am
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Watched 2012 yesterday with sy, and it is a really, really good movie. Sure, there was the usual Hollywood luck and the main-character-never-dies sorta thing. But the special effects and the overall feel of the movie is really good. There were parts where were a bit of a drag, but even for such a sad show, they managed to add some comedic and funny moments that were appropriate. There were several moments in the movie which were kinda touching, and displays humanity at its best. Really worth that $7.50 I paid. Haha. I mean the show was a little more than 2.5 hours, but it didn't really felt like it. The action, I was like nervous at some parts of the show! Overall, 2012 is the shits! (:
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There's this team. However, this team is rather invisibly divided into two groups. On one side, they backed the man-in-charge throughout.. through those disappointing circumstances and results, and when they saw their man-in-charge getting the boot, they decided to show their loyalty and protest his sacking. They were with him even before the lavish surroundings were placed around the team, when all looked down.
In the other corner of the room, this group of pampered, overpaid men, enjoyed the starting, having fun, enjoying the limelight, indulging in the cheers of their supporters. But once the team's form dropped, and drastically it did, they played a fool, turn their backs on the person who put his faith into them, the one in-charge of them. They weren't happy with the situation, but they didn't want to support him, work hard, and hopefully turn things around by playing well.
In the end, the man-in-charge, had a few people above him in the hierarchy.. that were his employers, and duly sacked him. His supporters in the team wanted answers, the other group wanted nothing to do with it, and to leave. I'm sure we all know which team that is.
This really is a classic example of some being really selfish, and only being there for you when they know they need you in the near future. When they know you are of no use, they don't give a shit, they walk away, leaving you in the lurch. Admittedly, I am no different, not perfect, and I have a tendency to do this at times. But I absolutely despise those that uses this to get above everyone they meet, some even to their closest friends. Just to get some small advantage in any area they want that small, tiny advantage, even throwing away strong friendships, or even emerging and those friendships that are just growing and beginning to mature. Sure, there are the temptations and benefits that make one do such thing, but think about it, is it really worth it in the end?
But I still remember those that back me all the way. Those that, even when we don't speak so often anymore, or see each other as much as we would like, one I haven't even seen for a few years; they watch my back, I watch theirs. We go through all the shit together, and come out stronger. They don't just leave when the going gets tough. Or only stay when they need you for their own benefit.
It's a point I've wanted to made for a very long time. Good that you managed to read all the way, if you really did. If you didn't I don't really care anyway, maybe you're just too busy for me. Only you know. I won't know (:
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Kris Allen - Live Like We're Dying
Amen to that!
Bye.
my thoughts at 10:58 pm
Monday, December 21, 2009
Woo! Week 1 is finished! Still two more weeks to go.
It's Christmas week! Hmm... The weather is feeling a bit Christmas-y. Like rain and the wind, cold... But I want snowww!!! It'll never happen for another 50 years I guess. But at least its colder during this period (:
Haha like I've been saying, this week WILL be more eventful. (: Which means less studying... Damn! That means the last two weeks of school has to be a fine balance between work and play. Hmm...
I find it a little bit curious to see that some define work and study differently. Well it's a good thing actually, trust me. Aww I'm just crapping.
Another 3 weeks and it's back to school for most of us. But sadly there will be 22 left only. It's very unfortunate, but we have to face it. :(
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget All the ones who love you, in the place you left I hope you always forgive, and you never regret And you help somebody every chance you get
bye.
my thoughts at 12:29 pm
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I'm just a hypocrite.
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To all Reds' fans out there.
We weren't born to follow Come on and get up off your knees When life is a bitter pill to swallow You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
I'm still believing. I'm still supporting.
Maybe it's time for miracles.
my thoughts at 11:13 pm
Friday, December 18, 2009
Aww this week has been a bore. Well since everyone is overseas the past week, really had no one to go out with? So yah... Stay at home, study a bit. Next week... Must start going out, and at least I have my plans for Monday already. Haha. Today's training was weird. Trained with the 3 guys and one female Jurong West keepers. And played like half a match? Thanks to Keane for my half-a-match clean sheet. Don't know how he stopped that! And he still had to feel my mis-pat on his back for a job well done, the long stick and everything. Well it's less than a week to Christmas! What a year has it been. I still remember last year's Christmas. Well not that it really matters. Anyway this past week, the studying was still a minimal. But I don't really care, cos at least I did some. It was just the guilt feeling that forced me through it. Didn't want to feel like shit that I wasted my holidays when I go back to school failing my MSAs.
Haha now I don't believe I'm watching the Europa League via streaming now. How desperate have I become? With Liverpool not being seeded due to not being one of the top four third-placed CL team, that last-minute goal against Fiorentina just feels more like shit again. So they play away in the second leg. Ugh. Unirea Urziceni Oh, two CL dropouts. But remember, this team won more points than Liverpool in the group stages! Ah, not as bad though. C'mon Reds! Highlights of the draw are Ajax vs Juventus, Fulham vs Shakhtar Donetsk.
Hmm. Nice, just yesterday I read David Beckham wanting his loan employers side AC Milan to draw Man Utd in the CL round of 16, and he got it! Haha. And this is damn nice, Jose Mourinho's Inter vs Chelsea! Cool shits.
Hmm. Next week next week.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:04 pm
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Been watching MadTV lately, and man this is really funny!
MadTV - Apple iRack
The jokes are really, really damn funny. Haha, really damn suan too!
Check this out also, definitely worth a watch for all those Guitar Hero/Band Hero/Rock Band fans! (:
Christmas Lights Hero
Enjoy!
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:28 pm
Monday, December 14, 2009
Again. The same old story. Liverpool take the lead, yet to lose it. How many times has that happened this season? Liverpool of old would always never lose a lead. The lack of depth is apparent, especially that it is Arsenal that won. For Arsenal lacking Robin van Persie, it would be equivalent of Liverpool lacking Fernando Torres. Without Tomas Rosicky, it would be like Liverpool losing Yossi Benayoun. Injury to Nicklas Bendter and Gael Clichy, would be like the Reds losing Dirk Kuyt and Emiliano Insua. And who is in Arsenal's reserves to replace these players? Armand Traore for Clichy. Andrey Arshavin for van Persie. Samir Nasri for Rosicky. And they still have Carlos Vela, Eduardo, Aaron Ramsey and Abou Diaby in reserve. If Liverpool lost those players, probably only Fabio Aurelio would be decent enough to cover. Ryan Babel? David N'Gog? They are not even half as good as the players that Arsenal can use to replace those on the injury list. The first-half performance was great. Javier Mascherano closing down very well. Torres and Stevie G linking up very well, if only Torres had scored that one-on-one. And Howard Webb was WRONG not to give the penalty after William Gallas' blatant trip. It should have been 2-0 at half-time.
Yet, again. *Should have.
Anyway, this holidays is kinda boring. Nothing much to do really. Just study, get on the comp. Everyone is away now. So yeah, can't really do much. Well one thing is I have to catch up on my work and my fitness! Haha... And there is extra hockey training soon, which I will ONLY go for a few, don't wanna feel sian and burn out due to hockey.
What makes one so crazy and obsessed over something or someone? For me, Liverpool's defeat yesterday spoilt my mood totally, and I couldn't really sleep for awhile last night. But that's for something. The other case, how do people get really thoughtful and mad over just another person? I can't answer that question myself, and I really want that answer, and that solution. C'mon I mean, there are many more, more important things in life. And is this really very important? I can foresee, in a few years, I'll look back and see how foolish I am. I already see some of this year and see how stupid I was. Heh. It's getting hard to be around you There's so much I can't say Do you want me to hide the feelings And look the other way
Bye~!
my thoughts at 11:30 am
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Yesterday I spent my whole afternoon celebrating MC's 17th birthday. Well, ER and lum planned everything, so yah, and I just followed along. Since MC was flying off yesterday too, we celebrated his birthday at the airport, T3's Earle's Swensens. The surprise of the day for MC was some of his classmates being there, well I wasn't there to see his reaction, but boy it should be good. Haha... Then most of us ate the sirloin steak, it's not bad really. And then the playing games part was just... In words, "just for interaction". Finally after like an hour or so stoning there, we went to walk around T3, well, not before having to play in another "game".
Soon after, we headed to the Budget Terminal with MC, some of his friends left us, but we cramped onto the shuttle bus service there. And boy, did we Enjoy the Difference, as said in the Budget Terminal's motto/slogan. There was like a Macs, Hans and that's bout it.. oh yah, and a playground. It is really super budget man, or maybe I'm super spoilt when it comes to travelling. Haha.
Then finally we had to leave MC as some had their restrictions. Haha... Waited so long for the bus service again, and cramped on the MRT all the way back to Bishan. Hmm, well.. worth it though! So yeah, happy belated 17th birthday to MC! (:
Everytime I want to blog, I can't think of what I really want to say. When I'm away from the computer, all sorts of thoughts come to my head that I feel should go on the blog. Ugh...
I'm super tired and sleepy now. Well, the first day of three weeks has descended. We're all screwed! Haha... No lah, we'll cope.. just fine...
Bye~!
my thoughts at 4:21 pm
Thursday, December 10, 2009
7. And that's what Liverpool's gonna finish as they are relegated to the Europa League. Another late goal, just what Liverpool's CL campaign has been about so far. Late goals.
Well, there are a few positives, though...
1. Alberto Aquilani's 75 minutes; he looked good with some nice touches, but needs to show more attacking flair, one great ball at the end of his cameo.
2. The Return of Fernando Torres (Again); yup, he came on for the last 30 minutes, and should have scored with a diving header, that would have made it 2-0, but not meant to be, hopefully he'll be fit enough for Arsenal this weekend.
3. Dani Pacheco & Stephen Darby; finally, Rafa plays some of his youngsters, although Darby was at fault for the last minute winner, he still had a decent game, and Pacheco just came on and a few minutes later had a good shot on goal, signs of things, perhaps from the Spaniard?
4. Recoveries; it's good to see more and more first-teamers coming back from injury, and hopefully the squad will stay injury-free.
The negatives...
1. Missed Headers; Dan Agger and Andrea Dossena should have scored from their headers, which were much easier than Torres' attempt. C'mon if they had scored, Liverpool 2-0 up, game over.
2. Last Minute (Again!); again, again, again... why is the focus not there anymore, just for the last couple of minutes, letting it slip.. once again.
Hmm... Well, for this season to look good (barring the end of the title race and Champions League campaign), Liverpool need to win the FA Cup OR Europa League, AND MUST finish in the top four (somehow!).
Well, watching football online with streams just sucks. Screw you, Singtel. The lags and everything... Ugh!
Bye.
my thoughts at 5:34 am
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE.
my thoughts at 11:23 pm
So finally, after almost a day of waiting, mioTV is finally in my house!
Well, the first dude that came did something to the other phone line, and took around half an hour. The next dude came like ten minutes later, and he was more from Singtel, helping us fix in the mioTV set top box.
When he finished setting it up and installing it, he then taught us how to use the remote control for the mioTV. As he was browsing through the channels...
"Ok, so 2 is Channel 5, 3 is Channel 8, (then as he was about to refer to the other language state television) rubbish, rubbish..."
"So these channels, no money no watch..."
Moving to the football channels...
"Yah, the football channels are 61, 62, 63. (For 62 and 63), if no business, no broadcast"
Then when he was teaching us how to buy movies...
"Ok ah, so you go to 'Latest Blockbusters', then 'New'... Ah, Fast and Furious 1, $6+..."
The Fast and The Furious... Damn new hor! Haha...
Singtel screwed up the timing of the person coming. Damn Zz, make us wait the whole morning, then whole day...
Thanks Singtel. Just a word of advice, ''if it ain't broken, don't fix it''.
Oh and finally got Band Hero! =)
Hmm... It's been a long time since I've blogged about emo-ness. Am I happier now? I'm still not too sure.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 9:49 pm
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Haha. FINALLY, the stupid finale week for hockey is over. You know how is it with me and super dull routines? It's like for the past five days, I've spent more time outside than at home, not counting the amount of time I am asleep. The frickin' routine is like waking up at 8, leaving house at 9, training and being out till 7, then reaching home around 8, then relaxing one corner till 10, then sleep at 11, then wake up at 8... For five straight days. That sucks. The training was good though, I think I still need to improve a lot.. but that goes without saying anyway.
Then I headed for my class' chalet at Pasir Ris on Friday night. It was much worse than the June one at NSRCC. Only saw like 10 of my classmates? Some left the previous day after staying over the first night, but like really sucks. Nothing to do... I think outings fits us better. Anyway I decided to leave at 10.
Today had match with hockey seniors. Anyhow play, score don't know what, rain like shit again, then when finish playing, stop raining. Zzz... Then went to pool with Greg. Picked up some really good tips for pool from him. Haha really fun, then talked a lot of shit and on our way back I was arguing with him that ______ is really hot even if he can't see it. Haha!
So yup, I need a respite from traveling, and I need to start studying! Haha... Sian... Everyone's away now.
Oh yah, England got a really easy draw, in my opinion.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:07 pm
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Ironically, training is the only thing that distracts me now.
I want to go for class chalet, but am I darn tired from daily training of this finale week.
Hmm. I'm also finding study buddies! Haha I know that sounds damn gay, but yah, I need some... 'Cos I'm gonna start studying soon! Even if it's slowly... 'Cos I need to rev up my engine and do some leisure studying.
I just betrayed myself by listening to Jonas Brothers' When You Look Me In The Eye, and recently I've been quite fixed to Party In The USA by Miley Cyrus. OMG What am I turning into? Sigh... Must be the post-stress.
Haha, check out this really cool I Gotta Feeling parody! Awesome!
Pretty random. But yeah. That's life, it's unpredictable!
K, Bye~!
my thoughts at 9:56 pm
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Wow! The weather was really, really having fun with us today! So we were at CCAB at around 9+, it was FRICKIN' sunny, so damn hot, almost cloudless sky! Still... We had to go train, and me having my pads on and everything, it was damn hot! But I struggled all the way to 12, where we had to go for lunch before our friendly at 3+ in the afternoon.
Ho, ho, ho... To everybody's surprise, it started raining... H.E.A.V.I.L.Y. So we stoned at the pitch for awhile, before attempting to leave for Far East. But the rain was too much, so we headed to Prata Cafe across street to have our lunch, where we all squeezed into like 3 tables. Ugh.
Then as we were heading back, it was all sunny again! Ugh... Then friendly in the sun. Hehh...
My leg's feel damn fatigued, aching... Tired actually, and only day 2 just finished.