So today was an eventful day. It marked the last day of the Final Years. Hmm... History wasn't really tough, kinda okay. Physics was easier than expected. Math felt like a war. Econs just made my hand go numb. GP was quite difficult. Chinese was a no-brainer (meaning I don't care) paper. Haha yeah that's for the Promos. Then after history today I went to the Cage with Tim, SY and Marc's class people. They sure are good, or I was just off-form ;(. Couldn't bring out the Torres in me, hmm I just guess tomorrow I'll have to bring out the Stevie G outta me. Hahaha...
Then after that I went to Leisure Park where the class was having their class outing. Uh yahh. Class outing.......
Oh then as I was going home... I took the stupid train towards Bartley! Aiyo, only realised it at Lorong Chuan, where I got out and took the train back to Marymount. Stupid me. Haiyo so stupid.
And then this morning I woke up to the news that Liverpool lost to Fiorentina in Florence!!! Argh! Shits. Why so bad? Good wake up call though, ahead of the Chelski showdown at the Bridge. They couldn't even score! Argh.
why oh why can't i be like ec, mk, kk or maybe bt? why must i always follow where the waves flow? why can't i just be carefree? maybe i'll be much less pissed off and angry at times... or maybe i just can't fit in well with others. it's like this to me, it's basically the environment we grew up in, during the most important times of our lives so far, and that is in secondary school. for me, i grew up in chs where suaning was the name of the game, that's how we got along, that's how we showed our friendship today i saw that my bungs didn't betray me, but i also remembered of the times we suaned each other... there's another side, where being nice and funny and lame was the norm and people seem to like that better... well to me, i think that's better too, but some just don't see that it doesn't always work that way... maybe it's just me, maybe it's just that i just can't get along, true i can't be as funny as others, but i know that i indeed have a heart, one that most claim to have, but simply do not show. i read this quote today "no one can be happy without friends, but no one can be sure of their friends until they are unhappy" this is certainly true in many senses, in happiness, joy, fun, you see one side of your friends, what i like to call the shallow side. but only when you're unhappy... you see the other side, the more important side, the side that shows they care, they are concerned for you, and this is the true meaning of a friend. sure fun and laughter is all good too, but no one can be happy everyday, every minute of the day. there was once someone told me also that i am so sensitive, sensitive in a 'good' way well he probably meant i kept reading into people too much well if that's a crime, then i admit i'll probably be convicted of it already hmm i see no wrong, maybe i'm just too good at it, maybe i overdo it but i rather see someone in a deeper sense than their shallow surface i mean what's the point? if you know you'll be disappointed in the end. hmm to that person.. fyi: i've already read you too (: so yah. i really don't wanna give a shit no more. but i still do. and i don't know why, or maybe i do. but who cares? it doesn't matter to anyone right? i mean, the problem's just me. and i admit it now (:
Maybe I should blog this way in the future.
To Mark Koh: I'm going to try Vodka soon.. What could be worse than the hungover suffered from trying Apple Martini, right?
Bye! (don't worry I'm really very happy now, especially with promos over)
my thoughts at 6:56 pm
Friday, September 25, 2009
Hmm. I need that last motivation, that last inspiration, that last drive to get past this ever-nearing finishing line. It's so close. Time's running out... And by that, time to study is running out. Everything's gonna be down to the previous 8 months of work and understanding, in which probably the first 2 months was kinda lacking.. due to slackiness and official commitments like hockey. But no excuses though! I need to get past this finishing line within the maximum time set, or else... Or else... (I know most people will say otherwise, but stranger things have happened)
Complacency is going to be my, and Liverpool's (for their game against Hull tomorrow night), only downfall. The main focus still has to be on the first three days of this new week. Can't be complacent, must continue to struggle, then I'll get past the line without much frills. And then what come's next for me.. will be interesting indeed (:
Haha.
No more details though.
Concentrate! Concentrate on exams first.
I know I sound muggerish.
But I have to. At least for just a little less than a week.
Then I'll be back to my old self... Can't wait!
Bye~!
my thoughts at 11:20 pm
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Ok so now for some stupid reason, I'm teaching Mark Koh over MSN how to do some stuffs on FIFA09, and FIFA10 is coming out in less than weeks' time. Well never mind then.
So... Today. We're halfway there... Oohh oh... Anyway. Econs today was kinda tough. The CSQ was okay, but I memorised a chunk of shit that was not needed. The essays were a little tougher, I had to be so bloody flexible at crafting my shitty answers. Well never mind then.
GP and Chinese was yesterday. GP was tough, well 'cos particularly the fact is I haven't touched GP until the night before, 15 mins before I slept. And I wasn't really taking Chinese too seriously. Slept here and there during the paper to conserve energy. =)
Well... There's a reason why I do not pursue certain things (for example certain people/person), anymore. I just don't want to fall down again. Picking myself up from a tiny pit I tripped into was already hard enough, bruised all over and shaken. So I can't really imagine picking myself up again if the fall is deeper and more painful. There's the other side that says that 'if you don't try, you will never know'. This is true for most things, like for exams, or games. If you don't try, you will never know if you can do well or not. True, but not true. Maybe failing each time can help you, more experience, better understanding, but at what cost? Is it worth it.. failing so many times? So yeah, maybe when I have more time to think through, without all these exam crap... I may change my mind and take more risks. Who knows?
Bye~!
my thoughts at 11:30 pm
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
IT'S TOMORROW.
And in one week's time. It's over.
So yeah. Good luck, all the best, and have fun for the upcoming exams!
Hmm... I really hope everyone I know promote.
C'mon!
Ciao`.
my thoughts at 9:54 pm
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Man Utd 4-3 Man City.
Another reason why the EPL is the best league in the world.
Haha... So yeah. Leeds United vs Liverpool. Former UEFA Champions League semi-finalist, now in League One, Leeds takes on the Reds! Haha... So my line-up: Cavalieri; Degen, Kyrgiakos, Carragher, Aurelio; Babel, Lucas, Mascherano, Riera; Gerrard (C); Voronin. Substitutes: Reina; Agger, Dossena; Spearing, Benayoun; N'Gog, Ecclestone. Hope the young English guns can have a role to play, probably Agger will come on for some match fitness. Haha they better win.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 10:35 pm
Friday, September 18, 2009
Soooooooo... Bad news this afternoon. Our PW group's WR first draft was apparently a piece of bullshit. Hmm... I feel a bit disgraced by it, especially when almost 40% of it was done by me, so it sucks. And the underlining problem is that my mates need to contribute more! Haiy... Sucks. But I swear the second draft will be a hell of a good one, I'll really make sure of that. =)
Shayne Ward - No Promises
This song is not very recently. But it was one of my special songs during Sec 2. Oops! Nothing else revealed! Haha... It's a really nice (emo) song. =)
4 days left to Promos! 11 days left to partial freedom... (knowing that after that it's all still lessons, PW week and Chinese intensive until the end of November)
Good news! Gossip Girl is back!! Season 3. Now it's out! The first episodes out! And I'm gonna watch it now! Haha... Don't care study! Now must relax. :D
Study study study!
Bye~!
my thoughts at 11:34 pm
Thursday, September 17, 2009
I wanted to type a huge post blasting some people. But I'll reserve those anger-filled emotions and thoughts for another day should another of this 'bust-up' come about again. It just keeps getting better, then worse, then better. I don't know man. But if ever it gets better, I'll continue trying. If it gets worse, I'll stop. Very simple. =)
Studying looks promising. Managed to cover what I want to cover for the days.
Hmm. It's been a long time since I've told myself to never open my heart again. And it's been that way till now. Well mainly cos I wanna focus on my Promos, and get promoted. But yeah, I don't wanna keep trying to give myself but yet keep getting disappointed, whether it's because of my own decision or due to uncontrollable circumstances. So yah. I'm just really happy for myself for what I've managed to do and how I've managed to control myself. Maybe, after Promos I'll have a "change in policy"? (Why do I sound so history-like?) Or if favourable circumstances are presented in my face, who knows? Well, I guess focusing on Promos is the main thing now. Haha nothing else must distract me! :D
Bye~!
my thoughts at 10:12 pm
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
This start of the week is rather dull. Trying to cramp everything in before the Promos start next week. Physics and Math seems like they're gonna be uber difficult papers. And I also heard from my classmates that they're gonna give back all the papers and results on one day, after the PW Week, so you basically know whether you are promoted or not, in just that day. Wonder how I'll sleep the night before.
Well at least I got this nice boost from Celine! A packet of milo with a really interesting and encouraging note. Haha "interesting" if you know what I mean. Nice gesture, though. Thanks!
So yeah, one week more.
Bye~
my thoughts at 8:25 pm
Sunday, September 13, 2009
And with that - a final penalty corner at the other end of the final whistle, with everyone up, except me of course, that we didn't score - our campaign in Div'3 is unofficially OVER (as we forfeited our last three matches due to the Promos). We started with a team of I think around 15, and played 12 games. That means, 12 games more of experience for all of us year ones at hockey. Haha... Well we are bottom of Div'3, and officially the lousiest team in Singapore, but who cares? This is how our standings read, only the matches we played.
Pl 12 W 1 D 1 L 10 GF 7 GA 33 GD -26 Pts 4
There were matches we played really well but lost, there was that one match yesterday that we didn't play as well but won, but all the time, we fought very hard; fought for one another, fought for every ball, fought for every lost cause. We can be very proud of our efforts, even though at times we let ourselves and our coaches down. But it was well worth it with yesterday's win, finally on the second last game of our campaign. At least we have 4 points in the bag. So yeah, all in all, bring on A'Div next year! =)
Back to school tomorrow. One week before the Final Year Promos officially start. Study hard everyone, stay healthy, and good luck for the upcoming final examinations. I hope I can study hard and do well though. And in 3 weeks time, we'd be rushing our PWs.
i can be your dirty little secret... who has to know?
Bye~!
my thoughts at 10:03 pm
Đąrrėŋ Benayoun! Chelsea tyco again as usual! Arsenal got blitzed. says: im the problem everything i do makes her pised off she's always right girls are always right anyway right? so yah everytime i get angry with her, its totally my fault its not because i have other issues that compounds my frustration... its all me whatever i dun give a shit anymore dont say i didnt try
I've had enough.
my thoughts at 12:58 am
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Saints-Buccaneers 1-0 OVA
I thought I'd never be able to say that we finally won a game in Div'3. Well it came on our unofficial second last game, 'cos tomorrow's our last and the next three games are forfeited already. It was like last night I was checking the Div'3 schedule, and I saw that I 'conceded' nine goals even before going for today's match. Haha but yeah, it was finally worth it, today's trip, as we finally got our first three points. Kaiye scored the winner but it was a blooper that the goalie made, one I made quite often this campaign already. Haha. So yeah it was like a few moments earlier OVA had their PC goal disallowed as their first hit after a mazy run was not counted as it was the first hit. Then after that the rest of the match I only had to kick the ball and clear the danger three times. They had a couple of mistraps that had they trapped the ball, a good shot would have seen them equaliser and maybe a winner. But what the heck, we finally won, albeit we played kinda poorly.
So anyway, check this out, can you dislike hypocrites yet be a hypocrite at the same time? Well I think that's so me, 'cos I hate hypocrites yet sometimes I am one, which rather makes me a hypocritical hypocrite? Or is that a confused hypocrite? Or that I hate myself? Haha... Whatever!
cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
Bye~!
my thoughts at 9:23 pm
Friday, September 11, 2009
Today's primary objective was to get out of the house and finish the stupid 6 pieces of Chinese homework, and I managed to do both! Didn't really plan for the Friday of this Sept holidays, so I ended up in SA in the morning studying with Celeste. Did a bit of Math for an hour or so and then went to eat the cup noodles sold at the canteen's drink stall. Went back to the library at 1 and started on those dreaded 6 Chinese papers. Did like until 2.30 before we went to have tau huay. Haha then when we got back at 3+, I managed to finish the rest until 5. Almost 3 hours doing this stupid Chinese! Haha then she left and I went to meet Mark Koh to go eat KFC. :D So overall good day.
I just slept for an hour at 8! Supposed to do Physics but yet again I'm sleepy again. So what the heck. Shall start later if I can.
Tomorrow's the second last game (probably) for Div3. NYP if I'm not wrong. It's gonna be fun seeing that small ball fly past me again time and time again. Hehh. Still no clean sheet and not even a win so far in 10 games. Sucks!
Hmm... It was different one month ago.
So much for My Happy Ending.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:59 pm
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
09.09.09
It was like so long ago that it was 07.07.07. I was in Sec 3 and it was CHMA all over again. We struggled to sell tickets cos there was this church event and Live Earth on that night. But we still pulled it off and another CHMA was as spectacular as ever. Haha how I wish it was like this for this year, and I still hope with regards to next year's.
Haha. 2 days to 911. Let's remember that fateful day in 2001. And never forget.
And England are finally through to South Africa 2010 with two games to spare. =)
Bye~!
my thoughts at 10:49 pm
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
PW meeting was fun again as usual. This time it was at my house. Arghh although I didn't study today. But oh wells never mind.
(I swear PW meetings are the best sometimes. I mean its quite pressure to do finish the work and yah sometimes we shouldn't always give out HOMEwork and actually finish the work during meetings right? True and not so. It's really fun that we make sure we play at the end of every meetings, whilst making sure we complete some work and make some progress, no matter how little. It's much more fun to have a nice PW experience than a dready one just to get that A. C'mon this is a H1 subject equivalent to a H3 or H4; aka an A should get 40-50 points, not a measly 10 as stated. But yah, even though I admit my group isn't the best at giving the highest of quality work, we certainly rock with each other's company. And now to think I felt so negative when I first saw who was my members. I should slap myself now. Haha =) Rock on SA147! :D)
At first today we had to attend some extra lessons. Met Beverly at the Potong Pasir MRT before we headed to school. Math was a bore, just go there copy notes only. Then after that Sam, Mark and me went to Macs for breakfast, went back late for Econs lecture. Haha first time I rebellious sia. Hmm then Econs lecture just practically playing Mark's iPhone and talking to seiyee and seeing 09S21's Belinda's fake cry, which was kinda funny yet scary at times. Haha. Love it loads.
Then Ayleen, Mark and I went to Kallang MRT, but had to wait for like half an hour for Ken and then Mai to arrive, before we headed off for the National Stadium via the shuttle bus. Had a very hot, hot, humid time taking pictures of the place, roaming the exterior, and waiting for the bus that would take us to Dhoby Ghaut MRT. By then we were ahead of the time schedule and reached my house an hour or two early.
We slacked a bit at first and slowly did the PW survey, before Ken designed some of our exhibits on paper and Mai finished the survey. Then we had dinner and bonded, yet again :), before started playing Guitar Hero. SADLY. MY GUITAR WAS SPOILT =(. So we play only drums and vocals, which was funny seeing everyone had a fair amount of time to sing. I think we took like almost 15 vids? I fear for myself once Ayleen and probably Mark get to Facebook. Mark was like raping my Squirt, making him mosh and do the hand action that is apparently equivalent to the middle finger, as according to Mai and Ayleen. Hehh, so we assigned our homework and I challenged Mark to FIFA09 in the last bit of our PW Meeting for the September Holidays, aka PWMSH (whoa official name seh). I won once and Mark won once, although Mark's win was spirited and a smash-and-grab sorta, after my Robin van Persie was injured after hitting the post once. =( Haha both times Tottenham prevailed.. coincidence? Hehh...
LOL Now another person knows about my little recent history I have. I need to shut my mouth up man. Shits or else the whole world will know soon enough, which is not good for myself.
my thoughts at 10:00 pm
Sunday, September 06, 2009
OH MAN. I AM SO SICK OF LOSING.
0-2 0-8 0-4 2-2 0-2 0-2 1-2 1-2 2-5 0-1.
Goals conceded: -30.
10 games played. So that's like 3 goals conceded per game. Wtf man. Quite demoralising at times. Even though we all know its for experience. Going for every match optimistic, finishing it so eff-ing demoralised. I want a clean sheet. Just one! But there's only two chances left. And one of 'em's against second-placed NYP. That one kenna thrash luh. No need say.
Hmm...
A'Div's the aim! :D
Bye~!
my thoughts at 11:08 pm
Friday, September 04, 2009
Man. I need a break. We all do, but we all also know it's never gonna happen. It's just 19 days left to the Final Years. It seems like just yesterday when Orientation ended. But that was like almost 7 months ago... Hard to believe, myself. Anyway there's just a little more than 2 weeks left and I'm still here blogging. But what can I do, I'm so damn tired and Friday night is now usually the only time I can rest, other than Sat/Sun nights where there is EPL and it's mandatory for me to catch it. I feel I've been pushing myself, it won't decrease anytime soon, probably increase. This September holidays will be more of a ever-multiplied study session for most of all, especially when we don't want to repeat another year.
This next 9 days will be a really trying one for me. For all those that have stopped their CCA activities and trainings already, mine like just multiplied. Tomorrow morning is the last training before FEs, honestly that should have been weeks ago, and then right after training will be a short lunch before another Div'3 match.. this time at Sengkang, not Delta. Then Sunday afternoon is another match at Delta. If we can get just one point from these two games, I'd be very happy. I'm still gunning for my first clean-sheet! I have at least four tries left. =) Then the weekdays would be filled with study, study and more study (all the more tonight's importance). Tuesday would be PW day, field trip to National Stadium and then PW meeting to consolidate our research resources for our VERY LACKING Written Report. =( Then Saturday sees another match in the late afternoon, as does Sunday, before it's a week to FEs. WTH Schedule! Ahh...
Hmm sorry if I feel emo again. But seeing those photos from months ago just makes me think of how foolish I was; just one note I always reminding myself to torture myself time and time again: if I hadn't done anything, I would definitely not have ruined something almost quite special, to me. Now, it's just a speck of dust in the back pages of more importantly my history books. But yet I don't regret it, as I was more experienced because of it, and I very much conduct myself much better.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:21 pm
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I don't know why I'm here anyway. Nothing much on anyway.
Just three days of school before the end of Term 3. So darn fast for my liking man. It was like a blink of an eye ago that we were coming up against our CTs.
Happy Teachers' Day too. Sad I didn't get to see Ms Krishnan and company. Luckily I didn't see Eddie Yong, at least not a glimpse of him is still fine. Ahh and me and sy played soccer with a bunch of my batch Cath High peepz in Cath High's shit field! Most were VJ and NY. I was on the mostly NY side. We all play damn lepak, like don't care. But I scored with a header! Not bad! First time in a long while since I've played, and it's quite sick that only after leaving Cath High then I scored with my head. Still, I loved that moment, just that I wasn't playing with the normal people I usually do, or else I'd be elated! (:
The Teachers' Day celebration concert on Monday at SA was quit good I must say. Entertaining yet a little stale at times. But it was a good concept implementing the MTV Movie Awards-style teachers' day award program was quite funny! Haha nice job luh SC.
Let bygones be bygones. Hehh how true so recently. =)
And I'm getting all thoughtFULL again. Pictures ain't helping, just fueling the thoughts. Need to concentrateeeeee on studyinggggg for Promos! Haha. What a 'wonder-less' hiatus from... .
Bye~! This was the most random thoughtless post. Period.