First it was all about trying to fight off this sickness of mine that has plagued me for a week already, feeling so damn tired even though I slept 8 hours the night before. Then till now I'm still not fully recovered. Still have to go for training tomorrow though, and there's PW meeting at Mark's. Haiy... And to think Promos is in less than a months time. MSA II results came back too, and like CTs, I learnt how much I got for H1 Hist through the stupid overall results list that we have to check and sign. Anyway got 55 rank points (one less than CTs), even though I got a U for Physics. Got rescued by the barely As of Econs and Math. Well... There's always a balance, I believe. Need to buck up for Promos then again.
This sickness of mine prevented me from full-throttle studying this whole week. Kinda sucks especially when I actually WANTED to study. I feel like a mugger but what the heck, it's only for another 4 weeks. Bear with it, deal with it. That's all I can think of.
Well at least there's this nice (?), long (sorta) weekend to look forward to. There's no school on Tuesday, and barely on Monday. Contemplating to pon, or maybe to go late to pon ACES Day shit. Definitely going back to Cath High though, hopefully the teachers don't run away like they always do.
Haha I like this current 'joke' of some sort. Inside joke, about some people. It's real funny but quite true man. =) It's also quite mean, but what the heck, it's fun, I don't care. Some people really need to like shove themselves in front of the mirror and look into it before they judge/comment on others.
Aiy. Why am I so humji to even say hi?! I always "tremble" in fear in the presence! Haha.
Anyway... I'm so OVER YOU. Honest. =) Friends was just right all along. And I've always wished we'd get back to that. It's hard, though.
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:24 pm
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Stupid flu. :(
So now. From having a weekend of tutoring Sec4s and training for the first time since the A'Div at Northland, and having a match against JFA today, to doing some much needed studying and catch-up, I'm down with some throat infection of some sort. I started to have a ticklish throat on Friday evening, after I woke up from my afternoon nap. Then I tried to heal it with some warm honey and the black Chinese medicinal stuff. But it didn't work, and when I woke up the next morning to see if I was fit enough to go for training, it was just too much and the thought of feeling awful sitting on the steps of Northland, unable to move comfortably was just hard, so I decided to stay at home and rest. It didn't get any better as I started having feverish temperatures and worsened cough, and runny nose in the evening. Sucks, I tell you. Had to go see the doctor at night, one of the clinic's last 'patients'.
Here's one thing that sucked. I am taking this antibiotics that seems like paying $3.50 every time I need to eat it, pretty ex. but I just want to recover soon. Can't go for today's match too, and cos we're so desperately short of players, luckily our teacher called for the previous A'Div players to fill in for us, under the guise of names of some of those on the 'sick list'. Sigh, 5 players sick for today's match. How good the timing.
With Promos in like just 4 weeks away, I tried to make use of the time and do some DIFFERENTIATION, but I just kept dozing off and whenever I woke up I felt like crap, felt hot. So couldn't do much, and afterward I think I'll go try to read some Econs or Hist... Can't do much PW too, don't like going on the comp too much now, just to blog though (:
Sucks to be sick now. How did I get this?!
Bye~
my thoughts at 11:01 am
Friday, August 21, 2009
I NEED TO STOP BEING USED.
my thoughts at 10:03 pm
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Finally. A performance Liverpool can be proud of. On the back of rumours Rafa was going to quit (yes, because of those American owners again), Liverpool FINALLY produced a 4-0 drubbing of Stoke. The team they couldn't get even a goal past last season, that's why they ended up with only two points from two fixtures against them. Now Liverpool got 4. Ughh... Glen Johnson was definitely man of the match, with a superb bicycle kick goal, assist for David N'Gog's 1st goal of the season and Liverpool's 4th this morning, and most of all his attacking intent and surging runs forward. That's what those big bucks got Rafa. Another option in attack, and Johnson in fairness looked defensively sound as well.
Stevie G still looks to be finding his form, but had done well after his role in the third goal for Dirk Kuyt. Fernando Torres finally got his first. Pepe Reina was outstanding, especially after the save he made from Rory Delap's thunderous strike on the edge of the area (yes, Delap have other qualities other than his long throws). And Liverpool dealt pretty well with Delap's long throw-ins and Stoke's corners. Daniel Ayala had a good game alongside the stitched-up Jamie Carragher, and Lucas looks improved from the last game with some fine tackling and decent midfield play. Overall, a good result, especially after United's shock defeat to Burnley, and Rafa better get it right against Villa this weekend.
Rafa sold a bunch of youngsters, like Jack Hobbs, Adam Hammill and company, Xabi Alonso, and Alvaro Arbeloa, for almost £40 million; and only bought the likes of Glen Johnson and Alberto Aquilani for around £38 million, so yah, Rafa made money! On top of a promised minimum £20 million pound transfer budget, he should have at least that amount remaining, at the minimum! Zz... Now reports say he only have £1.5 million left. And now he has no choice but to sign this Greek defender as back-up. Just give Ayala and Martin Kelly a chance! =(
Hehh tomorrow's the long-dued Learning Fest and College Day. Luckily I was not picked to represent hockey for the evening College "Day" event, but I still have to go for Learning Fest to go for the workshops I apparently paid for and help facilitate with my class' own workshop. Ughh...
Studied with Celeste yesterday... Was actually with Mai, Charmaine and Jessica before I went off for the hockey meeting, then when I came back to resume studying it was only her left. So yah, I don't know why, but I managed to do a bit of Math. Differentiation is hard now, not like 'O's... Then we played with some tennis ball for awhile, before we left...
Hmm. I am really happy I received this particular advice from a friend of mine. Let's just say she's one of my nicer friends. Haha. Because I have a tendency to be very observant and paranoid, the advice she gave was I shouldn't define my friendships, and that I shouldn't force things to happen. At that time I was still confused, but after she told me about this word 'defining' or 'definition' of friendships, I finally realised what I had been doing wrong. Well... I guess it's kinda true that friendships are not based on how many times you talk during the day, how many times you see each other.. but probably it's based on how much one cares for the other, and how much one would willing to sacrifice for the other when the latter needs help or needs his/her friend. I know of some of my friends, some current classmates, that I do not talk to as much as I would like at times, but I know I have some great degree of trust towards them. Then there are one or two I seem to talk to more most of the time, but of whom I have some suspicions of. Saying all this, I am just glad I got this advice. It really helped me to get through a tough time, and I'm glad I'm over it already... Thanks.
Bye! (:
my thoughts at 4:52 pm
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sometimes I think I tell too many people too much personal things. Hehh. But I only tell those that I trust.
Just so you know. (:
my thoughts at 10:03 pm
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
GPP... EoM... WR... I&R... WR...
All this. Adds up to one stupid subject.
...
PW.
my thoughts at 9:03 pm
Monday, August 17, 2009
This past 24 hours is quite 'dark for me. Hehh. Firstly, we lost against SCC 2-1, not that we were expecting to win, just that it was kinda disappointing at the end that we didn't get an equaliser, and the manner in which the two goals were conceded was indeed quite unlucky. But... We were quite lucky on various occasions, especially when one of Keane's deflections when over my head in the second half and not dip into the goal, and when some deflected over my head (yes over my head again) ball fortunately hit the post... And there's something funny, is that every time in front of me is just one of my defender and two strikers, and when one of the forward beats the last defender and lays it off to the other while I'm rushing towards the former's position, the latter forward usually never takes his chance with an open goal. Well it has happened twice already. Haha I hope by saying this I won't get third time unlucky. But anyway, it was a really good performance from all of us who expected to got thrashed. (:
And then I stayed up all the way to 1am just to see Liverpool lose their opener against Spurs 2-1. Andriy Voronin should have had a penalty after a challenge by the goalscorer Benoit Assou-Ekotto. Referee is buh-lind. And then today I got back Physics and Math MSA. Physics got U, I never do well for Physics MSAs, but Math got A, so that comforted me a little, only a little though.
When I got home I was so sleepy ('cos of sleeping at 1am, I wonder how Bev manages to sleep at 1am almost every night as claimed? Hehh), I wanted to sleep at 5 just now but I felt so much homework was needed to be done, but eventually I succumbed to the temptation and fell asleep on the sofa! (: Hmm... I think I'm gonna stay back on wed, since there's no training, to study. Anyone wanna joins? I'm open (until I get my preferred study buddy, lol)
Now... At least I did some work just now, to ease the guilt of getting U for Physics. =(
And yup, I'm still a confused boy.
Bye.
my thoughts at 9:46 pm
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Wow. How things have changed.
I thought I would be better off now, but recently, I've been getting more frustrating, just feeling a bit off the mark. I feel like I'm Xabi Alonso, but my 50-yard passes aren't reaching Albert Riera's big toe at the other end of the pitch. It's all gone astray. I feel like I'm Stevie G, but I'm static at the edge of the box, not making my lung bursting runs into the box to meet the crosses. I feel like I'm Fernando Torres, but I just can't get past 3 defenders at once and slide the ball past the keeper. Nothing is really going right at the moment, nothing is just nice.
It's a feeling of drifting-like that's worrying me. I'm easily distracted, easily tempted to not study. I don't feel as motivated as I was during the last two weeks of the June holidays. It's like, I'm not worried bout promos, when it's just a month plus away. It's 60%. It's a lot, even though I did decently in the CTs. I have to get through the weekly hockey match, I have to play every minute of Div3 essentially, for obvious reasons. I can't seem to get things right. All seems amiss.
All this, I find, down to one defining moment in my life so far. That moment, or event in itself, caused much distress and probably sadness, but it was a wake-up call of sorts to me,that for all I am, there's much I'm not. I don't know how I came up with that line, but it just flowed out of me. This one defining moment, was 'indirectly' inflicted onto me. It felt sad at the time, but anger soon flowed, more like frustration; but still... It wasn't the best thing that happened to me. For the first time, this was real, I knew there was something, but I also knew I shouldn't have let it happened. Yet it did, and I guess now's the consequence. It's like I tried to play in a through ball for Fernando Torres, but being Stevie G and all, I didn't thread the pass through as perfectly as I usually do, and this meant a counter-attack that led to a goal conceded. Even though it's not all of me, I feel like I take all the blame. One up could have been achieved, but one down it was.
I thought I could handle all of this, I could handle the what ifs. The what if all these goes wrong. Now I know I'm incapable of such. It's just hard to imagine the past few months, what it was like, how great I felt. Now this all feels like crap, especially with external work piling up onto myself.
I felt a much better person, but now I'm back to my old self. Nothing but imperfections. Trust me, imperfections are good, but too much will just throw you off. I'm not disappointed with anyone really, just more with myself. It was my choice that this happened, even when I warned myself to prevent it. I think I've lost more than I gained, although some things that I gained is quite valuable to me now. It's like a substitution. Take off Fernando Torres, you lose your main threat in front of goal, but on comes Ryan Babel, and you add more directness and energy that Torres may not have had to offer. Well it's like that, for some gains, you lose. The extent of your loss? It's how you count it. Different people have different ways of valuing the loss.
I also think a lot now, even though it's on different things. There was a nice hiatus of this thinking of mine a month or two ago. But it all seems to be coming back. Now with this, one huge gain is that I trust myself better, I trust my instincts better. Instincts guide your feelings, at times, if you didn't know. I trust my instincts to guide my feelings better in the future. Or tomorrow onwards. I hope it doesn't fail me again, and I hope it gives me much more courage too. Only some people will get that last bit.
Still, I just want to thank some people, even though they've hurt me quite a bit before. They've made me tougher, although sometimes more emotionally-hardened. I've seen almost all of it before, I've thought bout it before, but sometimes I ponder: "Is it really worth it?" And just think I'm foolish. But when I get to the situation again, I think totally differently and act weirdly.
I want more out of myself. I want to push myself more. I want better friendships. I want better relations. I want much more than I already have, and it's those intangible things that counts more to me now more than ever, and more than I could have imagined a couple of years ago. I would gladly trade some things for having one, yes just one, better friendship. I want something to get back to the way it was, the way it was before my feelings started screwing up, and before I tried something awfully stupid. I do regret it, but just for the record, I've totally given up. No more.
This is probably the first time I've posted something that came out so easily and didn't take much thinking to get out, 'cos most of it was from the heart. If you read all the way and see this, thanks! If you just skipped the boring bits and see this, no comments.
My phrase recently... let's make the best out of our lives. I want to, I just find it so, soo hard.
Bye.
my thoughts at 12:21 am
Saturday, August 15, 2009
So the new 2009/10 EPL season is upon us football fanatics once again. I'm excited, yet Liverpool's squad looks weaker than in previous seasons. Here's my little own review of the top 4 sides.
Manchester United.
Goalkeepers: The Red Devils currently have Edwin van der Sar as first choice, with this probably his last season. They have two back-ups in Ben Foster and Tomasz Kuszscak, which would be capable of playing in any of the top 10, if not top 6, sides. Hence they have much quality in this department, and the three would be rotated much in the league and cup wherever Sir Alex sees fit, with Foster probably second choice and Kuszscak as third-fiddle. Youngster Ben Amos also has a squad number. (Ranking in relation to the other top 4: 1st)
Defence: Rafael, Gary Neville and Wes Brown are all capable of filling in at right-back, with Brown probably more likely to be Sir Alex's first choice. The first choice pairing of Nemanja Vidic and Rio Ferdinand is very strong and solid, and with Jonny Evans and the versatile John O'Shea as very strong back-ups. Fabio will play second-fiddle to Patrice Evra, and with that Man Utd's defence looks very strong in depth for the coming season. Ritchie de Laet also has a squad number. (1st)
Midfield: With Cristiano Ronaldo gone, the goalscoring workload will surely be spread out more evenly this season. Antonio Valencia and Ji-Sung Park are the probable candidates for the right-wing, with Luis Nani and Zoran Tosic battling it out for a place on the left. Ryan Giggs can play both in the centre and on the left, with youngster Gabriel Obertan hoping for some substitute appearances. In the centre, Darren Fletcher looks more and more in the first eleven, with Michael Carrick the firm favourite for a first team spot. Paul Scholes, Anderson, Darron Gibson and the returning Owen Hargreaves will provide different dimensions of play and more options in the middle. Youngster Tom Cleverley also has a squad number. (1st)
Attack: Dimitar Berbatov and Wayne Rooney are the probable first-choice. Michael Owen will be vying for a spot in the side too, keeping everyone on their toes. Danny Welbeck and Federico Macheda will have much more of a shout this season after Carlos Tevez left. (2nd)
Arsenal.
Goalkeepers: Manuel Almunia will be the undisputed first-choice in goal. Lukasz Fabianski is a decent goalkeeper that any relegation-threatened side would want in their side, and will provide ample back up for the Spaniard. Vito Mannone is the other option in goal. (4th)
Defence: Bacary Sagna and Gael Clichy will be the first-choice full-backs. The first choice pairing of William Gallas and Thomas Vermaelen will also see Gallas capable of filling in at right-back if needed. Mikael Silvestre and Johan Djourou are good enough back-ups in central defence for the Gunners. Kieran Gibbs and Armand Traore are Clichy's back-up at left-back. Philippe Senderos, who could be leaving the club soon, is another option at centre-back. Hence the defence looks in good shape for the coming season. (3rd)
Midfield: The centre will certainly see Cesc Fabregas as the pivot, but it will be interesting to see who partners him. Denilson, Abou Diaby and Emmanuel Eboue all can play there, but the former should be the defensive midfielder. Aaron Ramsey, Samir Nasri and Andrey Arshavin can all play there too, but they can also play outwide, on either side. Tomas Rosicky and Theo Walcott are probably preferred wingers, with Jack Wilshere waiting in the wings for a start. Most of the midfielders are versatile and can play anywhere across the midfield, so it is surely that they have enough options to fill in when needed. (4th)
Attack: With Emmanuel Adebayor out of the club, Nicklas Bendtner will have a pivotal season ahead of him. Robin van Persie is surely one of the two first choice strikers, but Arsenal have good back-ups in the shape of Carlos Vela and Eduardo. Arsenal have a good enough strikers this season to grab at least 40 goals this campaign. (4th)
Chelsea.
Goalkeepers: Petr Cech is one of the best in the league already, he is the undoubted first choice at Chelsea. Without Carlo Cudicini anymore, the Blues back-up are not very reliable. Henrique Hilario and Ross Turnbull can do the job a odd-game, but not on a consistent basis should Cech sidelined for an extended period of time. Certainly, this area Chelsea aren't the strongest in depth. (3rd)
Defence: Jose Bosingwa is the probably first-choice, especially with Carlo Ancelotti's new diamond-midfield formation. Branislav Ivanovic is the second-choice at right-back, with the versatile Paulo Ferreira and Juliano Belletti other options. Ricardo Carvalho and John Terry are the certain centre-backs, with Alex and Ivanovic the reliable back-ups. Ashley Cole will have left-back almost to himself this season, but an injury should see either midfielder Yuri Zhirkov or Ferreira fill for him. Chelsea's defence might look suspect with a few injuries. (2nd)
Midfield: Ancelotti's new-look diamond will see Frank Lampard spearheading at the tip of it. John Obi Mikel is the likely defensive midfielder, with Michael Essien and Florent Malouda at the sides of this diamond. Michael Ballack and Deco have a chance in the centre two positions of this diamond, and wingers Zhirkov and Joe Cole will face a fight to regain their spot from Malouda. Chelsea have much versatile options in this midfield area, and this new diamond should suit them well. (2nd)
Attack: Nicolas Anelka and Didier Drogba are the preferred pairing upfront. Salomon Kalou is a good enough back-up for the two. Dani Sturridge is an exciting prospect, but needs more experience and the top level. Andriy Shevchenko is the other option, and will want to prove himself should Ancelotti give him a chance. Chelsea have one of the best pairings in the league, but in terms of depth, they are lacking. (1st)
Liverpool.
Goalkeepers: Jose Reina is the confirmed number one for Liverpool, and will be hoping for another Golden Glove come end of the season. Diego Cavalieri is the second-choice, capable of filling should Reina get injured. Peter Gulasci is the third-choice, but needs more experience and will only be thrown in if both Cavalieri and Reina are seriously injured. Liverpool have enough depth in this department, though. (2nd)
Defence: New-signing Glen Johnson is almost certain the right-back, with Philipp Degen a decent enough back-up. Stephen Darby will be hoping for some chances this season as well. Jamie Carragher is the other certainty in defence, but will be looking to see who partners him, whether it's Daniel Agger or Martin Skrtel, both of which provide different options for Rafa Benitez. Fabio Aurelio, Emiliano Insua and Andrea Dossena should be constantly rotated this season, with Aurelio probably the preferred choice. Martin Kelly and Daniel Ayala are the other options, but lack experience in the top-flight. Liverpool have good prospects in the defence, but with only eight defenders with a good amount of experience, they certainly pale in comparism to Man Utd. (4th)
Midfield: Alberto Aquilani and Javier Mascherano are the likely first-choice midfield pairing in Rafa's 5-man midfield. Lucas will be hoping to pipe Aquilani to that midfield spot, and this season will be a pivotal one for him as well. Jay Spearing is the other alternative with his tenacious workrate. Dirk Kuyt should be the first-choice on the right, with Nabil El Zhar the confirmed second-choice at right-back. Ryan Babel and Albert Riera will have to battle it out for a spot on the left, with Yossi Benayoun a very good option for Rafa, as he can play across the attacking spectrum of Liverpool's forward line. Damien Plessis is another option in centre midfield for Liverpool. Rafa will have a solid first-choice midfield, but beyond that, especially in centre mid, should he need options, even without injuries, it could be lacking; but on the wings, there look to be enough dimension for him to change the game. (3rd)
Attack: Fernando Torres will be the lone forward with Steven Gerrard the link between him and the midfield, with Gerrard being part of the midfield 5 as well. David N'Gog and Krisztian Nemeth are the young back-ups to Torres, with N'Gog the likely second-choice to Torres. Andriy Voronin can play in both Gerrard and Torres' positions, and will be hoping to make an impact off the bench this season. Liverpool have a magnificent duo upfront, but beyond that lacks much proven quality. (3rd)
Haha yeah. I know this is a damn long review. But yeah I love doing this sorta things. I have to let go some of my frustration, and this seems to be a nice way to do it. Have to go study soon!
Bye~!
my thoughts at 3:11 pm
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Haiy, this week feels like a rest week, been coming home very early this past few days. There's no training, so I thought why not come home and relak and watch TV. Haven't done that for a few months now. It's MSA week anyway, so there's still a bit of studying needed to do. I need to start studying this weekend though, promos is like in a month plus time.
Next week gotta start staying back more to study. Or else I'd be at home slacking more often than not.
I still enjoy JC life, lovin' every moment of it, but I need to relax more often, admittedly (:
I shall try from tomorrow onwards, though it'd be tough with some people around me. :)
The Calling - Our Lives
This was the song played during the vid on CHS' Grad Nite. Damn nice! (:
Bye~!
my thoughts at 6:10 pm
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I think I only see 24 instead of 25, most of the time.
my thoughts at 10:20 pm
Why do I continually allow myself to be used? .. especially when that person doesn't care bout me at all.
my thoughts at 9:25 pm
Oh man, I'm so glad mock OP is over, and there wasn't a walkout! Haha! My group was the second to present today, and I think we were pretty good, considering we only prepared a little bit. Yeah man at least it's over, now we can focus on our other PW stuffs. Haiy, still got so much work to do. But this term seems to fly by so quickly by the looks of it. (: Well maybe things just past by faster when you don't have to think so much and you are more carefree in school right? ;)
Anyway I just realise how I tired I am just now. Even while watching TV I couldn't stay awake and just offed the TV and fell asleep. Zz... I'm not even sleeping very late compared to others, but I still feel so damn tired. It seems I have this knack of channeling all my energy into the day, and once I have time to stop, I just sort of 'collapse' with fatigue. Hmm... And there's like no respite in sight till the end of November, but I don't want that time to come so quickly, it'll mean another year (hopefully) then JC is over.
Hmm...
Bye~!
my thoughts at 6:19 pm
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Haiy. Today sucked. Had physics and math and all that. Was damn funny during physics. Me and Haiqel were playing I haven't played in almost 5 years. It's like some paper soccer game where you use your pen to "pass" and "shoot" towards the other goal, and you have like 11 stationary players to pass to. Anyone can remember that? Haha at least it kept me awake. Math was the usual "can I have a proper greeting?" and "if you don't want to learn can you just shut up?" and *stop and stare* from our most favourite teacher. LOL. Chinese MSA2 was afterwards. It was quite boring but I managed to do it without much of a fuss. Not expecting much though, especially when I came late but still managed to finish early, and still slept for a minute or so during the paper. How to get B? Haha... Then after 1230, we had PW meeting to "finalise and rehearse" our OP for tomorrow's mock OP. So after that around 130, we had another 3 hours to physics MSA2 which was at 430. Wtf right? Great academic planner planning they had. Argh. I'm so screwed for physics. E would be nice. Tomorrow's mock OP. I heard our PW teacher walked out of one of his classes' during their mock OP. Hope my group don't get that similar treatment.
Watched MJ's live in Bucharest, I think it was in 1996 on Sunday night. He was hell goood I tell you. Great performing skills, much hailed stamina and super duper nice dance moves. Sigh, it will be quite some time if there will be another MJ-type of performer.
Haiy. If I had a chance to turn back the clock. If I could relive the recent past and change some things I had done. If I could change myself in any way. Hmm. I would never do any of this. 'Cos only did I had all these that I have learnt more and I am 'smarter'.
sometimes I get emotional.sometimes I do some stupid things.sometimes I say what I should just keep inside.sometimes I'm sad about everything.sometimes I'm mad and break some things.
Anyway. I have no qualms about being totally myself. Showing my anger, my frustration, my displeasure, whenever things do not go the way I like, or I am just unhappy with something. I don't care about what others think, especially if you don't care about me. I only would care 'bout others who care bout me. I rather not give a damn to those who are just nuts sensitive. I am certainly not worried about expressing myself in the language I like anymore. Don't like it? Just cover your ears.
It seems virtual reality is the only medium left. Reality has become almost like a vacuum unfortunately. Not that it's my fault ;)
Bye~!
my thoughts at 8:19 pm
Saturday, August 08, 2009
So today Mai, Ken and I went to Ayleen's HOUSE to do PW. We had to prepare our mock OP slides and such. Initially, we were like in awe with how extravagant her house is, and yah, her two dogs were a little scary at first, but I wasn't too uncomfortable soon after. Ken joined us around 2pm and then we started... After doing some slides, youtube was our form of entertainment and I watched some comedy vids. Haha, and oh yeah, the potato and chocolate chips were damn nice! I feel like I gained weight again. But anyway we soon went to sit at her deck above the swimming pool. Was quite nice place to lepak and do project. Hope we can do more PW there soon! Hahaha... Now I know why the girls want to have a 'study' sleepover there.
And I thought Mark's house was big! Haha...
We were quite productive, even though we didn't start on our WR yet... Hope we'll do well for our mock OP next week. Now have to study tomorrow. Zzz! And focus on the match on Monday. (:
Bye~!
my thoughts at 10:30 pm
Friday, August 07, 2009
Bye Xabi Alonso.
Thanks for the memories. The two half-way line goals scored. The third goal of the comeback against Milan in Istanbul. The sublimed 50-60 yard passes... They were all nice to watch, and I'm so glad that 5 years of your career was spent at Liverpool. Though you didn't win the title, you won the hearts of many Liverpool fans! Haha... The partnership with Javier Mascherano was, at it's best, the best midfield pairing in the world. Perfect blend of grit and style, you allowed Steven Gerrard to bomb forward without worries. And the second place last season could not have been achieved with Gareth Barry. At least I got to see you in flesh in Singapore, albeit only 15 mins.
YNWA.
Welcome Alberto Aquilani!
Hope you continue Alonso's legacy, whilst crafting out your own. Aquilani's height should be useful in set-pieces, and with his tendency to bomb into the box more, he should get more goals than Alonso. Another great passer of the ball, Aquilani will be expected to spread the ball, but of course not to Alonso's standard. Mascherano and Aquilani will have to form a good partnership soon, but with Lucas waiting in the wings, Rafa should have some decent options. Not forgetting Damien Plessis and Jay Spearing. C'mon!
Hmm. Hopefully I can stop all these realizations soon. One is that it, much like the VJ soccer trial I went for last year, in which they only had a look at us for 10 minutes.. is that I wasn't even given much of a chance. And that, from every failings, I learn from the experience and start afresh with new insights to move forward. Just that in the process, losing somethings is inevitable.
Bye.
my thoughts at 11:45 pm
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Oh! Blogger is finally okay! Stopped PMS-ing.
Argh, I hate myself. I hate myself for mugging so much. It seems so different from the year before the year of 'O's, compared to this year, the year before the year of 'A's. Uhh if you don't understand, think of it as JC1 is somewhat similar to Sec3. I didn't even touch my books until the Mid-Years in Sec3. Now I'm just all worried for Promos, even though some of you might think I'm already halfway there... =)
Don't know what's wrong with myself lately, or rather this week. Keep sleeping in class, especially during GP. I'll try to stay awake for awhile, then after absorbing as much as I can, I fall asleep. Physics... Chinese... No different, just sleep. I don't know why I got so pissed off during Physics today, just because I couldn't do the Gravitation questions. Haiqel must think I went siao.
It's gonna be a long weekend. Well, long weekends always past so freaking fast. There's PW meeting-cum-study-session on Saturday, and 'cos of that I deprived a group of people a sleepover. Sorry lah! And uhh, Monday's match against CSC Juniors should give us our first win, hopefully, and more hopefully a first clean sheet. (Okay in hockey it's much more difficult to get a clean sheet than in soccer with a smaller ball-size-to-goal-size proportion, and with every PC having a much higher chance of scoring than a corner in soccer, so yah, go figure)
MSA2! :(
Bye~!
my thoughts at 9:12 pm
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
It's true I still care deep down, even if my actions doesn't show it, or I'm just all with the 'care-less' look. It's true, I feel nothing no more, no more envy. I would still probably care, but to only a certain extent. I know I can control myself that I won't cross that real thin line. Still, I probably wouldn't care much if there isn't a need, and what's the point if I'm not of any concern, or this care isn't mutual?
I help in every way, but not looking for anything big in return, just you can't really see it.
It doesn't matter anymore, anyway. I have lost to the extent that I have nothing to lose, anymore.
I wanna go back to Cath High on Friday! But I wanna watch a movie first too! And there's MSA2 next week. :(
Bye~
my thoughts at 7:13 pm
Sunday, August 02, 2009
So we did lost to Aetos 2-0 just now. But hmm, in my book? We won. Ok you might think I'm being delusional or sore, but yeah, we won in our own right. I'm sure anyone of the team that played just now would agree with me. We didn't swear at them, we didn't play dirty. We played fair and square. Admittedly, we did quarrel with the ref at times, but the team did threefold of our own quarelling. And yeah, they got one player a yellow card. Says a lot doesn't it? Aetos are like a buncha bitchy crybabies. Like when they did score against me, the Sikh that's around 40+ was screaming YEAH so happily? Hmm... It's only Div3, and it's against a buncha first-years in hockey. So yeah? You proud of that moment? Fine by me I guess. :D
We dominated them a couple of periods, unlucky not to take our chances. But again, this might sound like excuses, but we did really not have our three first choice defenders in Marc, Jingkai and Norman. Imagine, if we had them... Imagine Aloy wasn't playing with a temperature. We could have like owned those Aetos bitches. You wanna swear at my team-mate? Don't expect me to keep quiet. Respect your opponents. Never heard of fairplay? Haiy, your win means nothing then. Our lost? It's a win in that we won more experience in standing up to "bitchy bullies" in Aetos (they are affiliated to Aetos Security Management... I feel so unsafe if they are the sort running this security management). We might have lost and they gained 3 points in the standings, but it's a hollow win. A dirty win.
Saints-Buccaneers won today, only that we didn't get three points. Doesn't matter anyway. =)
Tomororw's PE again! I hope its not the rollerblading yet. I might not like it, in every perspective imagined.