Thursday, June 17, 2010
Sometimes I can't care less about my actions, and whatever repercussions or consequences it might result in. Especially recently. Why should I anyway? Everything now is sort of like a temporary fix. I mean, which of these will last after all of this is over? This is all nonsensical nonsense really. C'mon 4 more months and I'm out of this place. Gotta push, and no distractions.
It's all me. All me. Ego or what, I don't give two nickels about what others think. Who cares what others think? Maybe I'd be concern with one or a couple of those that I'm really close to. But most of the others are just kinda out of convenience in my opinion. Anyway how should I trust any of your opinions or yourself if you are just going to be hypocritical and dishonest? I value honesty, even if it's brute, it may be hurting for a while, but at least you are straight in the face, not beating around the bush, lay everything down, settle in the open, not hiding problems or whatever issues you have that concerns me. Convenient lies are ten times worse than the hurting truth.
Naive. Trying to be the convenient one. For fuck? I don't get reciprocated with any thing back. It's all, freakin, me. No more, you, them, him, her, their, others.. not even OURS.
Remember. There are 101 rules in life, as most say.
Well this is what I say.
Rule 1: Honesty ALWAYS > Hypocrisy.
Rule 2-101: Follow rule 1, strictly.
my thoughts at 10:21 pm