Sunday, May 16, 2010
Maybe this post may seem familiar. But yah anyway, here goes (yet again?)...
I'm sick of all this already. Tired and fatigued with the thought of having millions of thoughts racing through my mind when I'm just walking along the corridors. It seems I can never get this right, and I never will. Time has come when I'm stop going to be hunting, and for a change, I'll wait to be hunted. Till then, or till the end of this year, I guess I'm done with all this nonsense and scouring.
I've seen those around me find their
one. Some still in the process, some falling off course, some not doing so well, but I can't even get the ignition (spark).
Time to concentrate on the larger and more important things on life. I shall stop all my ramblings and thoughts on them. I don't want to seek that one anymore, at least not this year. That's it for me. I don't want to do this to myself anymore.
I'm done.
The constant thoughts on what I should do, what I did wrong, what should I have done actually, what does this mean, that mean. Is it really that worth it to know what someone else thinks? My mindset now should all be me, me and.... me. Nothing more, it's all me now.
Selfish. No more helpful Darren or accommodating Darren.
Lies and harsh criticisms seem to be much better than superficial thank yous and false gratitude.Everything I do now, I do for myself.
Self-interest. Period.
my thoughts at 12:00 am