Tuesday, April 06, 2010
I've studied history for three years already. Maybe that's why my mind is tuned like that. For the first two years the screams of checking for reliability, reliability, reliability and inference, inference, inference has definitely made me someone who loves to read people's actions, behaviors and most importantly, motives and thoughts.
At times, it's a good thing. Other times, I may seem just rather too sensitive. But at least, for one, I know I'm not stupid. I have this seriously (sometimes overdone) tendency to look into people's action, even friends, and analyze whether they have any negative intentions or motive. Of course, I do not speak of it even if my gut feels something amiss or wrong, not to affect any relations, at least not on the surface, that is.
Another thing. Life goes on, despite disappointments. It doesn't really matter to me anyway. I kinda expected that it'd turn out this way. Not that it'll affect me that greatly.
I don't know why I'm talking about this. But it's just something I had to get off my chest.
I seriously doubt those around me. Even till now. Cautious I may seem, it's the only way forward.
Bye.
my thoughts at 9:31 pm