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BT1 is such a screw up, already. Got back two papers last week, physics and math, and a total of 15 rank points out of a possible 40 was achieved. Disappointed, of course, and unwilling to use hockey as an excuse. Well, at least not yet. I also knew that there was a time when I felt like giving up, I'm sure some knew about that, but I decided, hey why not persevere on and just see what happens? After all, it's only BTs, not the actual 'A's. So I thought like, even if I do badly, I won't be affected that bad.

And how wrong I was. I (don't know why, don't know how) expected myself to maybe achieve a high target of a B for my physics, or more realistically a C or D... Yes, I got an S in the end. That was slightly disappointing, would be a huge understatement. Well goes to show, the higher the climb, the harder the fall. My math, E, was more expected, and more of a relief for me, as I struggled to find 40 solid marks during the paper. So. My 60+ rank points target seems off? To say the least. And yes I was joking when I said I thought I could get into the Hall of Fame. Haha! So yah, if I flunk BT2s I'm really screwed. Zero excuses then. (Though I never want it to come actually, I love JC life too much now)


Dilemma. Enigma. Confusion. I just can't seem to find the word(s) to describe this new, albeit same old, situation I'm stuck in. Should I? Shouldn't I? This is probably the first time my mind is actually psyched and almost ready to go for it. But time and time again, I find myself excuses not to go. Why? I don't know. What I know is that I've never done this before, nor have I tried. So this would be a first in my many historical firsts.

Well in essence, after season, I really have nothing to lose already. If it doesn't work out, or if I fall at the first hurdle, well fine. The talking and rumors won't affect me, 'cos I can just ignore 'em without any possible huge repercussions. And then again, I have to feel my first rejection to get anywhere in the future.

Now the main question is, what if it isn't a rejection? Oh no and what am I gonna do then?

Bye.

Lenny
Joseph
Hua Peng
Sei Yee
Kelvin Kartoyo
Melvin
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