Monday, February 15, 2010
When I read other people's blogs, I think, 'why don't I blog like that?'. I read 'bout what other people do, I see their interests. And then I think to myself, 'should I have that interest too? just for the sake of being similar to someone else?'.
Then I wonder, why should I follow what others do? I have my own interests, my own likes, my own dislikes that, most probably know due to my audible nature. I don't do certain things, it's just because I don't like it. Everyone's different, that I know very well, so that's probably why I try not to follow the norm of others.
I've learned over these year or two that my real friends, the closer ones, the inner circle if you'd like to call it that way, are usually those that have similar interests to me. They don't really like most of the things I don't like, they love what I love. Football is one example. The drive to succeed probably another.
I know I may have neglected some of this inner circle recently, not that I want to, but (I have to give an excuse right?) maybe it's my body tiring out at certain times. I also have a feeling I'm drifting from
the five. I don't think they look at me the same way each look at the other three. I don't really know what goes on in their lives through what they say, most probably just what I see on everyone's favourite website, Facebook. Well so in this case I don't really blame them for the distance. I can only blame myself, I can only blame hockey. But what to do? That's the only thing that can land in my testimonial this year. And hopefully a "1st" or "Gold" can sum up my CCA achievements this year. (I probably shouldn't go into the huge change between iMedia and hockey, aye?)
So yeah, after season, or sooner if possible, I'll try to mend some of the small, tiny cracks. Maybe first off I'll try to go for ACJC's carnival thingy, if I'm still invited though. But either way I'll still ask the
bungs.
Anyway back to the main issue here. Is it correct to try to change oneself to suit the interest of
another. I don't think that's right. If
that person can't accept you for who you are, then there's no point really.
And I've also realised for a long time. Reality and blogging are two separate things. You can really see another person's side just by reading their blogs. It can be very fake, but there may be a chance it is real. But in any case. Never trust the face value of blogging, not even reality too.
And as usual, the difficulties, obstacles and problems are coming into my path faster than usual. Like I've always said, I don't wanna be left heartbroken at the end. I know this may seem that I think too much. But, like what I've said a gazillion times before, it's really not worth it. So yeah, I should just drop the initial interest.
No more,
unless...
Hmm now I'd like to ponder, this post, does it sound like me trying to adopt another blogging style? I hope not. Cos then there'd be no sense of
me anymore.
Bye.
I should probably start on history now.
my thoughts at 12:52 pm