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Nothing much to post about. Just that this week has really been very slacky. OP dry runs has been okay so far. Still have a lot of work to do for OP, especially for our exhibit we want to built. Hehh... Don't know what to expect tomorrow, but I'm trusting Mark and Sam's judgment. Please don't fail me.

Anyway, I love this song, one of the few slow songs I love.

Coldplay - The Scientist (Live in Toronto 2006)

Nice lyrics, great rhythm... (: Generally soothing song.

Bye~!

I'm in a dilemma.

I don't know what to do.

I think of the pros and cons.

Periphery again?
Fun?
Paranoia?

Oh I love the Royce chocolate from sy. (: Thanks dude. Super shiok yet not so fattening. Haha...

Anyway thinking back, I realised how stupid I was to be so sensitive and paranoid. It just wasn't worth it. Being so jealous, it affected my temperament, that I made others pissed off over this so, so trivial thing. It just wasn't worth it.

Bye.

So I just got the WR printed, all 3 sets of 'em, and darn they are expensive. Well it's all worth it if the results is good. (: Now it's time to work hard on OP.


Hmm... I think it's better if we hate each other. Sometimes...
It's less stressful for me, less for me to concern about...
And yet at times it'll be kinda fun to laugh at each other...
But yah, I still wouldn't mind if it's likewise.


I still think 'bout it. Can't deny that.


PW's such a pain in the ass.

Bye~!

I like the look on Owen's face. Welcome back to Anfield, indeed.


Anyway, why do some people take me for granted?

It's like... When people just know you, they are super nice. But once they know who you are, they take advantage of you, take you for granted. I mean there is a tolerance level I can take, but when you go overboard, I'll just be super shit up.

Well. I also found out just now, that I'm really good at finding out information, very good at knowing people's problems even if its not through direct means. But one things for certain, I certainly suck at trying to console or help the person. Well at least I know at least... I try.

Another of ours have left us. I'm sad, but I still love him. Haha...

I'm super tired, but there's still OP slides to do. I'm so f-ed up.

I'm gonna break down soon.

Thanks Sam for the size 1 Liverpool ball! Love it (:

Today is probably the first day in a long time I've been so pissed off.

Bye.

Yay! I've turned 17 today. Well... Today was no day for celebration, it was for some serious PW work! Haha... We met up to go to IKEA first to find some stuff and to bond. But couldn't find what we needed so we cabbed down to Takashimaya's Art Friend to find our stuffs. Then we went to eat Macs lunch before heading to Mai's hostel for yet another fun-filled PW meeting!

Well, going with what Mark predicted, yes... Me and Ken played table tennis when we had nothing to do... I only won like 3 sets? He won the rest, and yah the rest is a lot. Haha! It's so funnn table tennis, but yeah its been years since I've played, and I haven't gotten back my defensive game yet. Haha!

During the PW meeting, I got a nice surprise! Mai went to pick up Ken from the MRT, and they took kinda long, but when they came back, there was a cake! Haha I was TOTALLY caught surprised and yah, I was really appreciative for this. Aww man.. thanks guys!!! SA147! (:And yeah. Ayleen's present! (: So totally cool, a new member of my stuff toys family. Haha!


Then yesterday, my family went to eat German food for my birthday dinner. Damn shiok, especially with all the meeeeeeeat. Haha, some would not be too pleased. But anyway, then we cut cake at home, then I got my present! And guess what?! It's a Liverpool jersey! Haha... The one I wanted. (:

So yeah... Thanks to everyone! The 22 Facebook wishes, 2 SMS wishes and ONE phone call. Haha yeah. Really appreciated (: What a birthday.


We also played IJC yesterday in an unofficial friendly. We only had 10 against their 11. We struggled at first and conceded after a couple of mistakes between me and the last man :( But Tim scored a hattrick and we won 3-1! Haha... Yeahh, tomorrow sees another match, I'm not too hopeful with that...


Now for my last present before my birthday ends. Yeah?

Bye~!

During one of the scripture readings this week, there was something that was said that made me listen. It was about love. And that love was not just a feeling, but caring for the things that mattered to the person you love. It made me feel that, how more true can this be? That probably was the most meaningful scripture reading so far. Haha like out of this almost 5 years of morning devotion/scripture reading. I will always take that into consideration.

And yup...

They say that anger is just love disappointed...

And how true is that as well...

Seriously, I still ask myself, how and why did I get so crazy for you? I know some of the reasons, but to the extent it went, I really think back, and see that I was really mad. But I, like I've always said, never regret it; even though I may deny it at times. But I guess. Currently, I don't think its relevant anymore.

So my class celebrated Ayleen and my birthday, October kids, on Wednesday... It was okay I guess, got caked on the hair by someone. Well let's just say I've got off the most lightly amongst the other months of birthday celebrations. So anyway, thanks 09S23! (:


I am so so tired. Just so tireeeeeeed. Liverpool's losing at such an alarming rate now, and there's this crisis going on, but I'm so lethargic that I can't even care bout them anymore. It's a dread to watch them this season, but I shall continue to support them nonetheless.

It's like after the promos, and getting back our results, it's been more tiring than studying for the promos itself. With PW and Chinese piling up, I just can't help but want a week off school. And I'm sure I'm not alone with that view. It's just so tiringggg at times. Training is also starting to get tough again. And it's only the beginning.

Hmm... It's no wonder I have no time to think about what others think of me. I mean, it's not really I care you know. I mean, I don't matter, anyway. So yeah, do as you wish. Kick me when I'm low, when I'm down. It doesn't matter anyway. I can't take it. True. But I just don't give a shit 'bout you insignificant peripheries.

I think we're all going crazy soon.


This weekend's supposed to be special for me. But what do I do? I put PW and hockey ahead of it. Why? 'Cos I have no choice. I've had some people wanting to go celebrate this weekend. But I'm so sorry, it'll have to be pushed to next weekend or something. But if you ain't keen anymore, then it's alright... Really.


I've also come to realise, there's no time to think of anything else anymore. So yah, I'll just look. But that's all. I've got no more energy. I'm so tired I slept during Econs lecture today, and that was on the back of a nice 8 hour sleep the night before. Shows the extent of my fatigue, and almost everyone else's.


I really really need a break.

Bye.

I got my hair cut yesterday, before the awesome class outing, our first ever that almost everyone attended; thanks to Charmaine for organising! Well back to the hair, I know it's damn short... But to me, it's just me getting back to who I really am, and not who I've trying, albeit failing, to be, even in a small way. This was my hair in lower sec, until some peer pressure got me to grow longer, albeit uglier, hair. I don't really care about what people think of me, what's important is what I think of myself. (:



Superficial.
Why are you so superficial?
To think I...
Oh, please.



This never stopped me from playing sports.
This got me insulted and teased all the time in school, especially in primary school.
This didn't stop me from being a goalkeeper.
This didn't allow others to look down on me.
This put me in certain disadvantages, but I certainly more than made up for this in other ways.

Until now...


I just got great news. I'm so frickin' happy. Back to focus (: Off to I&R now!

Bye~!

This weekend has been kinda fun. Not as sloppy or boring. There wasn't any training on Saturday, and there was no need to study! First off, there was bowling at Seletar yesterday! Well, I had the lowest score amongst my bros, but at least I managed to do better in each round than the 38 I had during the recent 'class outing'!My total score for 4 rounds was 267. Haha I know it isn't very good, but at least I found my own style to play. Just walk up continuously and just push off with everything I've got.Well the two consistent bowling pros battling it out, I was just a 'mere 'spectator. Haha... (:
Well yah that's me totally missing the pins, and then slipping. Cool eh?

Anyway then on to play pool... First time at Seletar...
Though I sucked at first, then landed one ball tyco-ly. Hehh...

So today, I wanted to go swimming in the morning, but the laziness crept in and yah... Went for field soccer in the evening. I tell you, my stamina really sucks bad. I need to work on it, but I hate fitness training, even though I know its needed... Had to play left-mid, then centre-mid, then left-back, then left-wingback. All this positions, all the left left left, so unknown to me. Wingback?! Wth.

Now my right feet is so pain, 'cos I tied my boots too tightly in the haste of getting onto the pitch. Haiy...

But yeah, all in all, fun weekend!

Bye~!

Mike Jones, you suck.

Seven Simple Reasons For Liverpool's 4th Defeat Of The Season:

1 A confusing formation that only had two days at max to prepare for and understand.
2 USELESS Andriy Voronin.
3 Terrible debut from Jay Spearing.
4 Magnificent hard-working Sunderland side
5 Ryan Babel's dismal performance
6 Horrendous marking for the goal
7 Stupid beach ball/balloon

So, it's mid-October. A double header against Lyon's coming up. Manchester United on the 25th could be a battle for fourth spot by then. Bye bye to the title. Champions League? Lyon's gonna show us the door.

I'd like to see a ban to all balloons on the pitch. And maybe, whenever a balloon or any foreign object is spotted on the pitch, the ref stops play and ensures it leaves the pitch. That is as important as a player being injured.

This is probably the calmest post ever. So I guess Reina's at fault now for not bursting that balloon?

Bye.

SAJC's Students' Council is damn smart. (The original post was removed due to unforeseen circumstances and reasons.)

Well I will not go any further. Blog something worth blogging bout.

This week hasn't been very good for me, in more ways than one. Two unfortunate events have spoiled my week thus far. Never mind bout that. But anyway... Today we got our results. It was good for me, not so for some of the rest. I'm only happy I got good enough grades to prove that I am capable of doing competitive sports and yet get what's necessary.

Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

This song is so coooooooool...


Maybe there'll be a happy ending after all.



Bye :)

So check this out first...
Guitar-shaped swimming pool... Cool eh?



It had been the first time I've studied so, so hard.. just to get promoted. Never in my schooling life have I've been so worried about just getting promoted. It was usually a norm, and the real test was the final school leaving examinations. It's a new experience, but one I've definitely benefited from.

This feels so surreal. I'm not so much worried about myself, not that I'm overconfident either. I just want to take things as it is and take things in my stride. Rather than lamenting on failed opportunities, I would probably just take awhile, before picking myself up for yet another fight. Even if I do get to J2, I don't want to get it just by having 40 points or something. That's a real poor foundation. There's no point going up, struggling, and getting less than average grades for the 'A's. That's the point most have been trying to put up. It's better to have 3 years and get good 'A' Level grades than to force yourself to 2 years and get shitty results. I've came to realise that now, even though it's too late.

I'm more worried about the rest. I wonder how each and everyone of us will react once we've found out our results. Will we tear? Will we breakdown? It's just worse for myself too. Even if I make it, I'll not know what to say to those that didn't. No amount of words can comfort the wounded. And sometimes, it's not entirely their fault. I'll be clueless on how to react. How? What to say? Nothing I say can help. I'll just probably stand there, till anyone needs me.

But even then, maybe I'm the few unlucky ones. Who knows? You can't blame me for worrying now, can you? I can only safely be relieved if I get through, and for me, with some clear ground ahead of me, like 50+ points. I'm just being realistic. There's really really no point going up with anything lesser. I can, and struggle to do well, but I'm just afraid the struggle might just be too much to take.

There was something I wanted to prove myself at the start of this JC life.

Now, after all the rumours and casual talks.. tomorrow will show if I've been able enough.

Good luck everyone. (:

Bye.

Basically I had to wear my PE uniform the whole day today 'cos I brought my uniform BUT forgot my belt and tie. How smart I am... And I spent another $35 for a second third hand hockey stick, and it looks good (:

Ok so here's the thing.
You can laugh at me,
you can screw around with me,
you can think I'm a joke,
you can think I'm nothing,
you can make me jealous.
Whatever,
I don't give a f-ing shit.
I mean,
why should I?
You can go flirt with her,
you can go bastard me by talking to her,
I don't care.
You know why?
'Cos it's your right.
Your basic human right.
Freedom of speech,
shall we say.
But there's one thing you never do to me.
YOU NEVER F*** AROUND WITH ME.
YOU NEVER MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A F***ING LEASHED DOG.
YOU NEVER MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A FOOL,
especially in front of the person I fancy.
Never.
N
E
V
E
R.
Yes.
Never.

It's not that I wanted to get so pissed off today. Today started out really nice. Listen to music with Haiqel, PE... I am trying to be more calm, composed, less hot-tempered, but it's just things like these that make days or weeks worth of being less angry all thrown away. People will just think I'm some mad dog that gets angry easily, even when I'm trying my best not to. I just realised, sometimes, you have to be independent. I will be, from now on... Oh ya, to add on.

If you even think of trying,
you can be sure there will be something called,
returns.
You know...
Returns?


Period.

Bye.

Hmm. I need some alone time now. Too much of something.. anything... isn't good. I want to venture on my own for the time being. I don't want to be overcrowded and overwhelmed. Sometimes it's damn irritating. So I really just want to be alone at times. Well sometimes it's just needed.

Anyway, I really am praying for everyone for the upcoming promos results. It's true that retaining isn't the end of the world, sometimes you do better for your 'A' Levels if you retain, giving you a better chance of going to a good university in Singapore. Some may not see it that way, but I don't know... For me, I don't want to spend an extra year, if I had a choice, I'd move.. only if I could, though. I just hope everyone can promote, even though it's a very unlikely case. It'll be sad to see some retain or even leave us. I may look indifferent, but deep down inside sincerely, I really want everyone to get the desired results. Even though I'm a free thinker, I'll still pray... It ain't over till the fat lady sings. (:


Maybe I'm just not ready... Even if I keep saying I want to give up, it could be just I ain't ready for this sorta stuff. It could be I'm incompetent too. Thanks to all who gave me invaluable advice. Really appreciate it. But I'm probably not ready, yet. Well things can change... But I'll not let myself be susceptible to emotions so easily anymore.

Bye.


Haha. Horror movie, indeed.

Woah today was damn tiring, most so the fact I slept at 1130 last night, doing finish the PW WR. And today, there was no GP, Chinese and I ponned Math, mostly cos of the fact that we were supposed to be spectators for some graphic calculator competition. Hehh...

So yeah... Integration sucks.

And it's October! (:

Bye.

Oh training was tough yesterday. Imagine if there was real pitch. Argh. The exercises was already so tough, and then the 30 minute run was just madddd. Haha, but I guess it's worth it in the end. (:

Nothing much now... Although I finally got the pressie... Haha... Didn't expect it to cost so much, but I think it'll be worth it in the end. Hmm... :)

Short post, nothing much.


Crap. There's no EPL tonight! Only got England vs Ukraine. Guess I'll have to settle with that.

Bye~!

I thought you were a nice guy/gal. But it seems my view on you have changed. Sometimes you should learn to shut the f up. Just because you are all happy, joyous, funny and with a happy to angry ratio of 10:0, that doesn't give you the right to have mindless freedom of speech. Just because you think its a f-ing joke doesn't make it a joke to everyone else. I knew right from the beginning to never trust you, and I never had. I'm proud of myself for that. And I blame YOU for what could have been. Especially, after I found out something more just so recently, probably a couple of weeks ago. You put on such a great front, happy all the time, in comparison to me, who is the 'grumpy, angry, hot-tempered' all the time guy. Well, at least I show both sides of the equation that makes me. Unlike you, where you are just one-sided in the arguments that make you. So what if you have everything.. let's see how you do in the real world.

I was beginning to trust you. Well now I think that trust is draining fast away. Not that it matters, doesn't it? I was one of the few reasons that led to your 'change in status'. Well yea I may have been bias towards myself, but just go think about it. Now, this is when it all stops.


Circumstantial. Self-Paranoia. Or just plain, nothing?

Haha I'm not sure...


It's day 3 already! And I still haven't broken the challenge I set myself. =)

I feel so cold. Not in the weather-type cold. But just cold inside. It's like I'm emotionless somewhat. Almost nothing can be done to make me feel any worse. It's like I've turned into a rock inside. Could it be from being numb from last night's loss of Liverpool to Chelsea? Can't be. I've never reacted like this to a defeat. At most, I'll just be damn sad and angry for awhile, but the next morning, I'll be fine again knowing the Reds would win the week after.. or so I thought.

I've promised myself to not get angry this week. Not even once. Irritated's fine, but not pissed off. And what a week I chose to do this, during PW Week. Things have not gone to plan for day 1 in my opinion. I'm finding it hard to deal with the fact that I'm given menial or trivial tasks, even though I should try my best to lead. Well seems I should take a backseat now, let others have a leading role then. Ah but it's fine, even when people are trying to get me to be angry. I can deal with it. I have dealt with much worse in my short lifetime anyway. This shouldn't be a problem. It's a good challenge anyway.

But from what I thought of being happy and all, since I can't be angry, seems to be hard. Not being allowed to let go off any anger, just keeping it in, putting on a little smile, it's quite hard. Well some would argue, it's not my nature to not be angry, but I'm trying; 'cos I know this is for the better! Well, I'm gonna try anyway. So whose gonna stop me? (:

Maybe I've turned kinda cold is that I've accepted some realities now. It's like I'm used to it nowadays. Less willing to complain. It's so sian to complain. Doesn't get you anywhere, never will; but still, sometimes, it's necessary. I think I've gotten used to the fact that this silence and awkwardness between us will always be there, and that there are those I know will never like me for who I am, and feel they have the free reign to put me down and squash me whenever they want. Well, now.. I don't care anymore. I used to, but now, I've suddenly realised it's no use. These people don't matter to me, as much as those I care for. If putting me down is what they want, they will get it, but don't be surprised if I put you down too? :) Just kiddin'... =)

Haiy. Emotionless. Now for the first time I can't be called emo. (:

Bye.

Owl City - Fireflies

Owl City - Fireflies Official Music Video
This song's tune is so addictive, so unique. No wonder its in the top twenty of 987's countdown. Hehh...

So yeah today walked at town for the whole afternoon with sy. Wanted to find two presents for two very special someones. But I only got ideas more than solid, substantial stuffs. Need to go find 'corporate' sponsors to chip in. Haha... Finally tomorrow there'll be mahjong. Hopefully all goes well...

Hehh... "Common understanding", eh? Really means my instincts and mind haven't failed me one bit. I was so right. Just another case of proving my quality at reading people. Don't doubt it anymore. =)

I'll (try to) be less egoistic from next week onwards.

Bye.

What wrong timing.

Damn.

I suck at this sorta shit.

i wonder.. how am I supposed to feel when you're not here
cause I've burned.. every bridge I've ever built
when you were here I still try holding onto silly things
i never learn... Oh why, all the possibilities
i'm sure you've heard...


i can't trust myself with.. anything BUT this...
and That's What You Get when you let your heart win...

whoa oh ooh ohhh...


=)

Argh. Waiting for FIFA10 and Football Manager 2010 is just really a darn, hard wait. Sorry I can't figure out anything else to say. I can't wait for all the set piece creation stuff, and new more authentic managerial mode! Lol I seem to be advertising for them. FM2010 too! The better improved gameplay and match-day experience. Can't wait. Probably gonna have FIFA10 by tomorrow! Ahhh...

"Can't wait" for PW Week too! Lol...

Oh today I think almost more than half the class ponned school... It was just a stupid sex talk, career talk and Chinese! If there were no Chinese, I would have gone today.. for the sex talk and career talk. Anyway, yesterday night was decided that we wouldn't go Mark's for mahjong. But anyway this morning I got that text from Sherwin, and off I went to Mark's. Hilmi, David and Sherwin himself came then we kept playing FIFA09 (the last day of FIFA09, haha, officially.), versusing each other. I think we knew who came out tops (: Left when Mark's OG people came; 'cos, it felt kinda weird. Well never mind. Fun day as usual with the guys, worthwhile to pon school.

Demi Lovato - Here We Go Again

This is quite niceeeeeeeee.


And this Sunday's the big one (although it's at 11.. damn), Chelsea vs Liverpool. The Blues are without Petr Cech (: so will have to do with Henrique Hilario in goal? I don't think Ross Turnbull will get a chance. Both are suffering from a slight deep in form, contrasting fortunes in the last Champions League and Premier League games for both of 'em.

Liverpool should start with Jose Reina in goal. Glen Johnson and Fabio Aurelio on the sides of defence. The shaky backline of Jamie Carragher and Martin Skrtel should continue, with either Sotrios Kyrgiakos or the now-fit Dan Agger as a sub. They need a good game to hold on Didier Drogba, and they really need a boost in confidence, which would be a great one if they hold on in this game, keeping it to at least one goal only. Javier Mascherano should be back to shackle Frank Lampard, but alongside who? I'd still keep Lucas in though, Rafa would too, especially when he'll play a 4-4-1-1 or 4-5-1 as the Reds are away. Right side would be Dirk Kuyt, his main job keeping Ashley Cole quiet, and I think the left would be Albert Riera, so Yossi Benayoun can come on later in the game to make a much more 'concentrated' impact, and Ryan Babel is another choice too, but he'll have to step up his game. Skipper Stevie G with Fernando Torres upfront. If the pair performs, Liverpool will win. If one performs, Liverpool has a chance. But Stevie G must really get away from the shackles of Michael Essien, while Torres needs to outpace JT and Ricardo Carvalho.

Agger might get a subs chance, maybe even an offensive option. Andriy Voronin is useless? David Ngog has more use with his height.

So yeah, much to look forward to.

Bye~!

Vodka hasn't worked quite as well too... (Yet?)

I'm not sure.

I should be less rash, man. In. Almost. Everything. I. Do.

(:

The repercussions are (potentially) severe.

F%&# it!

I want A'Div.

:D

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