Wednesday, September 30, 2009
So today was an eventful day. It marked the last day of the Final Years. Hmm... History wasn't really tough, kinda okay. Physics was easier than expected. Math felt like a war. Econs just made my hand go numb. GP was quite difficult. Chinese was a no-brainer (meaning I don't care) paper. Haha yeah that's for the Promos. Then after history today I went to the Cage with Tim, SY and Marc's class people. They sure are good, or I was just off-form ;(. Couldn't bring out the Torres in me, hmm I just guess tomorrow I'll have to bring out the Stevie G outta me. Hahaha...
Then after that I went to Leisure Park where the class was having their class outing. Uh yahh. Class outing.......
Oh then as I was going home... I took the stupid train towards Bartley! Aiyo, only realised it at Lorong Chuan, where I got out and took the train back to Marymount. Stupid me. Haiyo so stupid.
And then this morning I woke up to the news that Liverpool lost to Fiorentina in Florence!!! Argh! Shits. Why so bad? Good wake up call though, ahead of the Chelski showdown at the Bridge. They couldn't even score! Argh.
why oh why can't i be like ec, mk, kk or maybe bt?
why must i always follow where the waves flow?
why can't i just be carefree?
maybe i'll be much less pissed off and angry at times...
or maybe i just can't fit in well with others.
it's like this to me, it's basically the environment we grew up in,
during the most important times of our lives so far,
and that is in secondary school.
for me, i grew up in chs where suaning was the name of the game,
that's how we got along, that's how we showed our friendship
today i saw that my bungs didn't betray me, but i also remembered
of the times we suaned each other...
there's another side, where being nice and funny and lame was the norm
and people seem to like that better...
well to me, i think that's better too,
but some just don't see that it doesn't always work that way...
maybe it's just me, maybe it's just that i just can't get along,
true i can't be as funny as others,
but i know that i indeed have a heart, one that most claim to have,
but simply do not show.
i read this quote today
"no one can be happy without friends, but no one can be sure of their friends until they are unhappy"
this is certainly true in many senses,
in happiness, joy, fun,
you see one side of your friends, what i like to call the shallow side.
but only when you're unhappy...
you see the other side, the more important side,
the side that shows they care, they are concerned for you,
and this is the true meaning of a friend.
sure fun and laughter is all good too, but no one can be happy everyday,
every minute of the day.
there was once someone told me also that i am so sensitive, sensitive in a 'good' way
well he probably meant i kept reading into people too much
well if that's a crime, then i admit i'll probably be convicted of it already
hmm i see no wrong, maybe i'm just too good at it, maybe i overdo it
but i rather see someone in a deeper sense than their shallow surface
i mean what's the point? if you know you'll be disappointed in the end.
hmm to that person.. fyi: i've already read you too (:
so yah. i really don't wanna give a shit no more. but i still do.
and i don't know why, or maybe i do. but who cares?
it doesn't matter to anyone right? i mean, the problem's just me.
and i admit it now (:Maybe I should blog this way in the future.
To Mark Koh: I'm going to try
Vodka soon..
What could be worse than the hungover suffered from trying
Apple Martini, right?
Bye! (don't worry I'm really very happy now, especially with promos over)
my thoughts at 6:56 pm