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Haha!!! I should adopt that thinking. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

And I SHOULD STOP THINKING!

So yeah. 3 weeks.

STAY FOCUS, Darren. Don't get distracted.

I don't know why I have a thing for Avril Lavigne's music. It's just, her songs are not only catchy, but they have some sorta meaning. True about some saying her live sucks, but I've loved her music since I was in primary school and it ain't gonna change anytime soon! Been watching some of her live performances online, and I think she sounds alright live.

Complicated

My all-time favourite song of Avril. I remember I used to keep playing this song in my dad's car. Haha! (:

Innocence

Her newest single, I think? It sounds nice and it's a very different style from her usual type of music. Nonetheless, this song is really, really nice.

Sk8ter Boi

:) I like the guitar in this one.

Keep Holding On

Inspirational? Maybe...


Hmm, the lyrics of her song Innocence is really meaningful,

This innocence is brilliant,
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect,
please don't go away,
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it,
don't you let it pass you by

Yeah, I hope I don't let this year slip from me, too quickly. But suddenly I think I'm enjoying every moment of it...


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Rules and values are there for a reason right? To guide ourselves, to make sure we're in step, with accordance to what we think is right and correct. But if you see the flip side, there's the exception. There's always a possibly one could throw away their values out of the window, due to an exception. And soon, the exception will become the rule. So I don't buy the shit that people will always stick to their rules, there's always the possibly of change. The only thing that remains constant in this world is change. If you don't get what I mean, my bad.



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If you really want something, if you really desire something, do you go all out for it? If I really wanted to win the A'Div, would I train super hard? Yes, that definitely. But am I right to say, there are certain things that just cannot be obtained even if I desired it so much?

Or maybe, I don't desire it enough to want to go for it with everything I've got. I gave up when there was no sign of the impossible yet. But anyway now, it doesn't really matter anymore.. I guess.


I think the past year has been really good to me, even though it doesn't looked that way. And I can safely say I'm back to my normal self. For real... For good. (:


Okayys. I think I'll see you next weekend! It's Chinese New Year soon!


Bye~!

I'm starting to doubt whether I'm good enough for hockey as a 'keeper, or good enough for anything, really.
People say, 'you must believe in yourself, push yourself'.
But the thing is, I'm not sure whether I have the physical or mental toughness to push myself to something I have never reached before; or whether I'm brave enough to do anything correct.
'Don't be afraid to make mistakes', some may say.
That's what exactly I'm not. I'm conscious of the mistakes I make, I think of them the whole day, sometimes even more if it's something I really did not want to get wrong.

I try to distract myself with anything in the world I can find, sometimes unconventional, sometimes trivial, but what else can I do?

Now it seems the going is gonna get tougher than it already is. Evidence can be seen with my history grade for this MSA. And to think it's just MSA, without maximum intensity training yet, and yet I couldn't study well enough for it.

Season's gonna start in 4 weeks. BT1 is in another month or so. Training is almost 4 days a week. I better use my weekends more wisely now. Saying is much more simpler than doing, right? Yup, true for me too. But I'll still try. Consistent work pays off, evidently. Well, this was what I signed up for last year, the challenge of juggling sports and school. And the beginning of such a difficult one is looking desperately hard to keep up with.

Sleep is also almost such a invaluable intangible item now. Even when I sleep for at least 7 hours, I still can doze off in class. But during breaks, I'm like so full of energy. I need to learn how to hibernate during breaks, especially if I'm not doing work during the break.

And the timetable isn't very helpful either. Some days, full of long breaks, some days, one short miserable 30minute break. And the timing of the breaks, 10plus, 2plus. Can't it be like around 1plus? More lunchtime-like? With more breaks, you eat more when you're in the caf. With just one miserable break, you just eat that instance, and go hungry for the rest of the lessons after that. I just don't get it.

There is motivation to do well, to strive and work hard. To get that Gold, to get those As. But the current stresses of juggling both is difficult. And to think after the season, I'll be so free, and have to study, AND miss hockey at the same time, at some stage.

It's already 10pm. I think I should go.

I need to rediscover my boundless energy, I THINK I used to have. Ugh.


Can someone be my superman tonight?


Bye.

Lenny
Joseph
Hua Peng
Sei Yee
Kelvin Kartoyo
Melvin
Seng Yew
Samuel C
Celeste
Mark

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